All the Bright Places

All the Bright Places

by

Jennifer Niven

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Violet Markey Character Analysis

Seventeen-year-old Violet is one of the novel’s protagonists and is Finch’s love interest. Nine months before the novel begins, Violet and her older sister Eleanor were in a car crash that killed Eleanor, a tragedy that traumatized Violet as well as Violet’s mom and Violet’s dad. Violet and Eleanor were extremely close, and in the novel’s present, Violet is overwhelmed with grief for her sister. She wears Eleanor’s glasses, changes her hair to look more like Eleanor’s, and can’t bring herself to work on the website that she and Eleanor started, EleanorandViolet.com. Indeed, Violet finds she can’t write anything, whereas she used to want to attend NYU’s creative writing program and be a writer. Violet and Finch meet on top of their school’s belltower, which they both intend to jump off of. But Finch talks Violet off the ledge, and the two soon fall in love. With Finch’s prodding, Violet starts to take interest in life again: he convinces her to ride in a car (which she refused to do after Eleanor’s death) and inspires her to write again. As Violet recovers, she comes up with the idea for Germ, an online magazine. Just when she feels stable again, though, Finch’s mental health deteriorates quickly. Violet finds Finch’s odd behavior somewhat disturbing, as she realizes that he’s living in his walk-in closet and learns from Amanda that Finch has attempted to commit suicide before. This prompts Violet to suggest that Finch seek help, but he refuses. She continues to try to help Finch, even after he stops contacting her and runs away from home. Because of the fact that Violet and Finch spent parts of their relationship exchanging Virginia Woolf quotes, Violet is the only one who’s able to put together what’s going on with Finch when she and Finch’s family and friends all receive cryptic emails from him. She realizes that Finch drowned himself in the Blue Hole, a beautiful swimming spot, much like Woolf committed suicide by drowning herself in a river. Though Violet again has to grieve, she ultimately realizes that she has to take Finch’s advice and live—and that if she takes full advantage of her life and remembers both Finch and Eleanor, her deceased loved ones will never truly be gone.

Violet Markey Quotes in All the Bright Places

The All the Bright Places quotes below are all either spoken by Violet Markey or refer to Violet Markey. For each quote, you can also see the other characters and themes related to it (each theme is indicated by its own dot and icon, like this one:
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). Note: all page numbers and citation info for the quotes below refer to the Ember edition of All the Bright Places published in 2016.
2. Violet: 154 days till graduation Quotes

I have a headache. Probably from the glasses. Eleanor’s eyes were worse than mine. I take the glasses off and set them on the desk. They were stylish on her. They’re ugly on me. Especially with the bangs. But maybe, if I wear the glasses long enough, I can be like her. I can see what she saw. I can be both of us at once so no one will have to miss her, most of all me.

Related Characters: Violet Markey (speaker), Eleanor Markey
Related Symbols: Eleanor’s Glasses
Page Number: 23-24
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6. Finch: Day 7 of the Awake Quotes

“But that isn’t why. The why is that none of it matters. Not school, not cheerleading, not boyfriends or friends or parties or creative writing programs or…” She waves her arms at the world. “It’s all just time filler until we die.”

“Maybe. Maybe not. Whether it’s filler or not, I’m pretty glad to be here.” If there’s anything I’ve learned, it’s that you need to make the most of it. “It mattered enough for you not to jump.”

Related Characters: Violet Markey (speaker), Theodore Finch (speaker), Eleanor Markey
Page Number: 61
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11. Violet: 151 days till graduation Quotes

I look in the direction Brenda pointed and there he is. Theodore Finch leans against an SUV, hands in pockets, like he has all the time in the world and he expects me. I think of the Virginia Woolf lines, the ones from The Waves: “Pale, with dark hair, the one who is coming is melancholy, romantic. And I am arch and fluent and capricious, for he is melancholy, he is romantic. He is here.”

Related Characters: Violet Markey (speaker), Theodore Finch
Page Number: 107
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21. Finch: Day 22 and I’m still here Quotes

“Why are we doing this, Dec?”

“Because they shouldn’t be in there mixed with the good. They like to trick you.”

And somehow I know what she means. I think of the Bartlett Dirt and all its mean words, not just about me but about every student who’s strange or different. Better to keep the unhappy, mad, bad, unpleasant words separate, where you can watch them and make sure they don’t surprise you when you’re not expecting them.

Page Number: 166
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26. Violet: 133 days to go Quotes

I set her glasses down on her dresser. “Thanks for the loan,” I say. “But they make my head hurt. And they’re ugly.” I can almost hear her laughing.

Related Characters: Violet Markey (speaker), Eleanor Markey
Related Symbols: Eleanor’s Glasses
Page Number: 191
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28. Finch: Day 28 Quotes

For once, I don’t want to be anyone but Theodore Finch, the boy she sees. He understands what it is to be elegant and euphoric and a hundred different people, most of them flawed and stupid, part asshole, part screwup, part freak, a boy who wants to be easy for the folks around him so that he doesn’t worry them and, most of all, easy for himself. A boy who belongs—here in the world, here in his own skin. He is exactly who I want to be and what I want my epitaph to say: The Boy Violet Markey Loves.

Related Characters: Theodore Finch (speaker), Violet Markey
Page Number: 202-03
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32. Finch: The first warm day Quotes

“What are you most afraid of?”

I think, I’m most afraid of Just be careful. I’m most afraid of the Long Drop. I’m most afraid of Asleep and impending, weightless doom. I’m most afraid of me.

“I’m not.”

Related Characters: Theodore Finch (speaker), Violet Markey
Page Number: 221
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48. Violet: March 21 and beyond Quotes

“Listen, I’m the freak. I’m the weirdo. I’m the troublemaker. I start fights. I let people down. Don’t make Finch mad, whatever you do. Oh, there he goes again, in one of his moods. Moody Finch. Angry Finch. Unpredictable Finch. Crazy Finch. But I’m not a compilation of symptoms. Not a casualty of shitty parents and an even shittier chemical makeup. Not a problem. Not a diagnosis. Not an illness. Not something to be rescued. I’m a person.”

Page Number: 307
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“He’ll be back. He always comes back.” That’s just his thing. It’s what he does.

I want to say to her and Charlie and Brenda, to Kate, to his mom: Doesn’t anyone care why he comes and goes? Have you ever stopped to think that something might be wrong with this?

Related Characters: Decca Finch (speaker), Violet Markey (speaker), Finch’s Mom, Finch’s Dad, Brenda, Charlie Donahue, Kate Finch
Page Number: 313
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49. Finch: Day 80 (a muthaf#@*ing world record) Quotes

All I know is what I wonder: Which of my feelings are real? Which of the mes is me? There is only one me I’ve ever really liked, and he was good and awake as long as he could be.

I couldn’t stop the cardinal’s death, and this made me feel responsible. In a way, I was—we were, my family and I—because it was our house that was built where his tree used to be, the one he was trying to get back to. But maybe no one could have stopped it.

“You have been in every way all that anyone could be…If anybody could have saved me it would have been you.”

Related Characters: Theodore Finch (speaker), Violet Markey
Related Symbols: The Cardinal
Page Number: 314
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54. Violet: May 3 Quotes

In all his words, the preacher doesn’t mention suicide. The family is calling his death an accident because they didn’t find a proper note […]. I stand, thinking how it wasn’t an accident at all and how “suicide victim” is an interesting term. The victim part of it implies they had no choice. And maybe Finch didn’t feel like he had a choice, or maybe he wasn’t trying to kill himself at all but just going in search of the bottom.

Related Characters: Violet Markey (speaker), Theodore Finch, Finch’s Mom, Finch’s Dad
Page Number: 341
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55. Violet: May—weeks 1, 2, and 3 Quotes

Then he adds, “I feel responsible.”

I want to send his computer and books crashing to the floor. You can’t feel responsible. I’m responsible. Don’t try to take that from me.

He continues, “But I’m not. I did what I felt I could do. Could I have done more? Possibly. Yes. We can always do more. It’s a tough question to answer, and, ultimately, a pointless one to ask. You might be feeling some of the same emotions and having some of these same thoughts.”

Related Characters: Mr. Embry (speaker), Violet Markey (speaker), Theodore Finch
Page Number: 347
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She looks at me. “In those moments, none of it matters. It’s like that stuff is happening to someone else because all you feel is dark inside, and that darkness just kind of takes over. You don’t even really think about what might happen to the people you leave behind, because all you can think about is yourself.”

Related Characters: Amanda Monk (speaker), Violet Markey, Theodore Finch
Page Number: 351
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Violet Markey Character Timeline in All the Bright Places

The timeline below shows where the character Violet Markey appears in All the Bright Places. The colored dots and icons indicate which themes are associated with that appearance.
1. Finch: I am awake again. Day 6.
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...Finch tells her that from up here, the town looks prettier. The girl’s name is Violet, and she’s extremely popular; she dates people like Ryan Cross and hangs out with Amanda... (full context)
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Finch introduces himself and chats to distract Violet. He notes that it’s starting to rain—which means the rain will wash away the blood... (full context)
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Finch shouts for Violet to stop trying to save him and then, quietly, he coaxes her over the ledge... (full context)
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...Gabe Romero—Roamer—tell Finch to “get it over with.” In response, Finch shouts a thanks to Violet for saving him. He catches his counselor, Mr. Embry’s, eye below, and he allows Violet... (full context)
2. Violet: 154 days till graduation
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It’s Friday morning, and Violet is in Mrs. Kresney’s office for her counseling session. Violet is still shaking after being... (full context)
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Then, Mrs. Kresney asks about college. A year ago, Violet would’ve loved to talk about college; she and Eleanor used to talk about where they’d... (full context)
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Mrs. Kresney then asks about EleanorandViolet.com, which Eleanor and Violet started after they moved to Indiana. The website got really popular... (full context)
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As Violet walks to class, lots of people tell her she was brave for saving Finch from... (full context)
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The girl behind Violet passes her a note. It’s from Ryan Cross, the best-looking boy in school who was... (full context)
3. Finch: Day 6 (still) of being awake
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By lunchtime, everyone knows that Violet saved Finch from jumping off the belltower. Finch heads for class and follows a group... (full context)
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...to see Hoosier Hill before they graduate. Annoyed, Mr. Black continues on. He’s interrupted when Violet comes to class late and accidentally drops all of her books. Everyone laughs, and Violet... (full context)
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...hand again and asks if they get to choose their partners—he wants to work with Violet. Violet blushes and asks if she could do something else, since she’s “not ready.” Mr.... (full context)
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...bad luck with women, since he goes for “bitchy ones” or “crazy ones.” He spots Violet across the parking lot and feels himself falling for her. (full context)
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...Finch gets onto Facebook and finds Amanda Monk’s page. He searches her friend list for Violet and finds Violet Markey. Violet’s page is only visible to her friends, so Finch searches... (full context)
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That night, Finch checks Facebook and finds that Violet accepted his friend request. He’s elated. He scrolls through her pictures and finds one of... (full context)
4. Finch’s Rules for Wandering
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...are no rules, since life already has too many. Instead, there are guidelines: he and Violet have to use real maps, not their phones, to find places. They’ll alternate choosing where... (full context)
5. Violet: 153 days till graduation
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It’s Saturday night. Amanda invited Violet to a sleepover, promising it’d just be them and a handful of friends. Since the... (full context)
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Amanda waves at Violet, tells her they need to fix Violet’s hair (Violet recently gave herself bangs), and asks... (full context)
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Roamer appears, sets down an ice bucket of beer, and asks why Violet was in the belltower in the first place. He notes that the door is locked... (full context)
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The last party Violet went to was on April 4th, the night Eleanor died—and now, this party is bringing... (full context)
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Violet’s mom and Violet’s dad are on the sofa when Violet gets home. They comment that... (full context)
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After a while, Violet checks Facebook and finds a video that Finch posted a few hours ago. He’s singing... (full context)
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...that he could come over so they can talk in person instead of talking online. Violet, scandalized, writes that it’s too late. But when Finch notes that they could talk at... (full context)
6. Finch: Day 7 of the Awake
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Finch pulls up to Violet’s house and finds her sitting on the porch. She meets him on the sidewalk, looks... (full context)
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Violet snaps at Finch, asking him what he wants. Finch drops his charming persona and asks... (full context)
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Violet asks Finch why people call him “Theodore Freak.” Finch decides on “a version of the... (full context)
7. Violet: 152 days till graduation
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On Sunday morning, Violet sits in her bedroom. The EleanorandViolet.com domain is expiring, so Violet sorts through her and... (full context)
8. Finch: Day 8 of the Awake
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...and logs onto Facebook, where a lot of people have liked someone else’s post about Violet saving Finch. He opens up his message to Violet and writes that “obligatory family meals... (full context)
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...seems to describe his life of moving between the “Asleeps and Awakes.” As Finch and Violet exchange more quotes, Violet asks where “When you consider things like the stars, our affairs... (full context)
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Violet takes 20 minutes to reply, so Finch checks out EleanorandViolet.com. When Violet writes back, she... (full context)
9. Violet: 151 days till graduation
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...new post in the Bartlett Dirt, which is the school’s “gossip rag.” It’s about how Violet saved Finch, and the picture of Violet in Eleanor’s glasses looks “like a makeover ‘before.’”... (full context)
10. Finch: Day 9
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...“unnervingly wholesome.” Finch also doesn’t trust this version of him to not mess up with Violet. So, during third period, Finch meets Charlie and Brenda at Goodwill. As Finch and Brenda... (full context)
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...be a great idea if he knew who he was. Brenda continues to talk about Violet in a scathing tone. Finch doesn’t really want to hear it, so he interjects that... (full context)
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...almost believes in the story. But when he sees Ryan Cross smiling and talking to Violet in U.S. Geography, Finch comes back down to earth. Violet is too busy talking to... (full context)
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Class is boring, but Violet is the only one who laughs when Finch makes a joke in his British accent.... (full context)
11. Violet: 151 days till graduation
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Violet is in the parking lot after school with Eleanor’s old bike, which Eleanor named Leroy.... (full context)
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Finch explains that the wall of notes is just that—ideas. Violet studies them and wonders about one, which reads “Is today a good day to?” She... (full context)
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As Finch and Violet pass cornfields, Violet almost feels like her old self. Finch says he likes driving because... (full context)
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When they reach the spot, Finch and Violet leave their bikes. Some kids on a fence point them in the right direction. Finch... (full context)
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Violet notices how blue Finch’s eyes are as he says that standing next to Violet makes... (full context)
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Finch makes jokes as they discuss their project, and Violet stops herself from laughing. He tells her that it’s okay to laugh—even if she ends... (full context)
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Violet pulls out her phone to take some pictures, and Finch shoves a notebook at her.... (full context)
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Violet and Finch get back to Bartlett in the evening, and Violet waits outside Finch’s house... (full context)
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Violet’s dad makes chicken piccata that night. Violet joins her dad and Violet’s mom at the... (full context)
13. Violet: 148 days till graduation
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In U.S. Geography on Thursday, Violet’s phone buzzes repeatedly. The Bartlett Dirt just published an article of the top 10 suicidal... (full context)
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Fortunately, the bell rings, and Mr. Black calls the class to attention. Ryan slips Violet a note asking her to the drive-in on Saturday as Mr. Black writes pop quiz... (full context)
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When class ends, Finch slips out before Violet can talk to him. Ryan walks Violet to Spanish class and jealously asks if the... (full context)
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At dinner that evening, Violet’s mom asks if she was on the belltower at school last week. Violet chokes on... (full context)
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That night, Violet has her recurring nightmare again: someone comes up behind her and strangles her. She wakes... (full context)
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Violet signs into Facebook. Forty minutes ago, just after one a.m., Finch messaged her that the... (full context)
14. Finch: Day 13
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Finch throws rocks at Violet’s window and then waits for a while, but she doesn’t come out. Finally, he heads... (full context)
15. Violet: 147-146 days till freedom
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Violet walks out the front door in the morning and finds Finch lying in her lawn.... (full context)
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After another minute of riding in silence, Finch asks what happened and offers to tell Violet how he got his scar. He says he wants to know because he likes Violet... (full context)
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On Saturday, Violet agrees to talk on the phone with the reporter. But when the reporter asks if... (full context)
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When the second movie starts, Roamer and Amanda go to the front seat. Violet tries not to listen to their slurping sounds. She tries to talk to Ryan, but... (full context)
16. Finch: Day 15 (I am still awake)
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Finch shows up at Violet’s house early and introduces himself to her parents. They invite him for breakfast and tell... (full context)
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Violet and Finch go outside, and Violet tells Finch where they’re going. As she goes to... (full context)
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Violet notices the blanket and pillow in the backseat, but Finch promises he’s not trying to... (full context)
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Finch is feeling fantastic—he got Violet into the car, and Finch’s dad is out of town for business. He asks her... (full context)
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Finch and Violet pull in at the Bookmobile Park, a stretch of flat land with parked trailers. Violet... (full context)
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...the woman cash for the books, and while she goes to get change, Finch and Violet peruse the other trailers and choose a few more books. When the woman gets back,... (full context)
17. Violet: 145 days till liberation
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...over the median to fix his mistake. In a tiny town, Finch parks and leads Violet to an abandoned factory. When they get close, Violet sees that someone wrote “Before I... (full context)
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Finch leans over Violet’s shoulder and writes that he’d like to kiss her. Violet kind of wants him to;... (full context)
18. Finch: Day 15 (still)
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On the way to Violet’s house, Finch suggests epitaphs for people they know, like Amanda and Roamer. He asks what... (full context)
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Violet asks if Finch is okay now, and Finch studies her. He knows it’s impossible to... (full context)
19. Finch: Days 16 and 17
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...Friday session, he decides to make it up to Mr. Embry by telling him about Violet. First, as usual, Mr. Embry asks Finch if he’s thought about or tried to hurt... (full context)
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...for by talking about a girl named Lizzy (so that he doesn’t have to reveal Violet’s name). After a while, Mr. Embry tells Finch to be careful. Finch is annoyed, since... (full context)
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The high school is huge, so Finch doesn’t see Violet much. On Tuesday, he decides to walk Violet to every one of her classes. He... (full context)
20. Violet: 142 days to go
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At two a.m. on Wednesday, Violet wakes up to rocks hitting her window—Finch is outside. She opens her window and tells... (full context)
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Finch then leads Violet into the local bookstore, where Finch’s mom works when she’s not selling houses. He pulls... (full context)
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After a while, Finch and Violet start to read Dr. Seuss’s Oh, the Places You’ll Go! aloud. They take turns reading... (full context)
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Finch and Violet go to the Purina Tower, which is only accessible by a steel ladder. Finch brings... (full context)
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...they celebrated the small things and remembered that there are places like the Purina Tower. Violet says that she likes writing, but maybe that part of her is over. Finch suggests... (full context)
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Finch calls for Violet to do the same. Instead, she stands a little behind Finch, holding his shirt, and... (full context)
21. Finch: Day 22 and I’m still here
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...gets home, Kate is on her way out. She asks Finch if he’s been with Violet and then says that Decca is upset, probably about Josh Raymond since they’re so close... (full context)
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...He pulls his comforter around him, reading the books. Finch wants to do this with Violet: give her only the good and get rid of the bad. (full context)
22. Violet: 138 days to go
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It’s Sunday night. Violet is in her bedroom, flipping through her and Finch’s notebook so she can write about... (full context)
23. Finch: Days 23, 24, 25…
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...He leaves the ceiling white, since white contains the wavelengths of all colors. Finch messages Violet that she’s all the colors, “at full brightness.” (full context)
24. Violet: 135, 134, 133 days to go
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...talk about him (Principal Wertz shut down the Bartlett Dirt), and on Wednesday, someone asks Violet if she should be on “suicide watch” for her boyfriend. The next day, Violet seeks... (full context)
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The fire alarm goes off at the beginning of third period. As Violet follows everyone outside, Finch comes up behind her, tells her to meet him in the... (full context)
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Finch steps on a twig and curses. Violet laughs and reminds him that he has to streak back to school now. Sighing, Finch... (full context)
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The fire alarm isn’t going off anymore, but Violet isn’t worried about being counted absent. Finch gets out of the river, dresses, and starts... (full context)
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Figuring she’s already in trouble for skipping class, Violet heads across town to Finch’s house. Kate answers the door and says she’s sure Finch... (full context)
25. Finch: Day 27 (I am still here)
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Finch watches Violet leave and then sits on the floor of the shower. He can’t look at himself... (full context)
26. Violet: 133 days to go
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Since Principal Wertz called Violet’s parents when she didn’t show up to school, Violet is now sitting across from Violet’s... (full context)
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Violet eats dinner with her parents in silence, and afterward, Violet’s mom follows Violet upstairs. She... (full context)
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Violet knows she can’t create all this content herself, so she writes a list of people... (full context)
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As Violet lies in bed, she realizes she forgot to cross off the day on the calendar.... (full context)
27. Violet: Saturday
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When Violet comes downstairs in the morning, Finch is eating breakfast with Violet’s dad. He tells Violet... (full context)
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With that out of the way, Violet’s mom asks Finch where he’s going to college. Finch asks if she’s read For Whom... (full context)
28. Finch: Day 28
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John Ivers, an old man who lives out in the country, greets Finch and Violet when they pull into his yard. He leads them to the two roller coasters he... (full context)
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...hold on. Finch screams as the coaster goes and rides it five more times. Then, Violet takes her turn. She screams and rides it several times, taking turns with Finch. When... (full context)
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As they head for the car, Violet notes that this is the end of their wandering. But Finch suggests that they keep... (full context)
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Suddenly, the air feels electric. Finch tells Violet he likes everything about her, and he takes the first exit off the highway. He... (full context)
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...people “humanely—with elegance and euphoria.” Finch thinks “elegance and euphoria” describes how he feels about Violet. He suddenly wants to be the person Violet sees. This boy belongs in the world... (full context)
29. Finch: Day 30 (and I am AWAKE)
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...They discuss Finch almost drowning Roamer, and Charlie asks if Finch has had sex with Violet yet. Roamer comes up to bat and, as expected, hits the ball right at them.... (full context)
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...Finch vows to himself to not hurt Roamer. He’s not worth it, and he remembers Violet’s look when he tried to drown Roamer at the river. Finch starts to count as... (full context)
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When Finch gets to his locker, he discovers the rock he gave Violet sitting on his books. Brenda comes up behind Finch and asks what the rock is... (full context)
30. Violet: February 2
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In Violet’s counseling session with Mrs. Kresney, she’s telling the truth when she says she’s been doing... (full context)
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At lunch, Violet walks past Amanda and Roamer’s table in the cafeteria. Violet turns and asks to join... (full context)
31. Violet: The weekend
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By this point, wandering is just an excuse to drive somewhere and kiss. Violet keeps telling herself she’s not ready for sex, but she also feels like she can’t... (full context)
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On Saturday morning, Finch picks Violet up and they go to the Arboretum. Violet asks about the fight with Roamer, but... (full context)
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When Violet gets up on Sunday, Violet’s mom says someone left a package for her on the... (full context)
32. Finch: The first warm day
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There’s a blizzard the second week of February. As it passes, Finch and Violet visit some nearby sights and build a huge snowman. On Valentine’s Day, Finch takes Violet... (full context)
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...bottomless blue holes like this exist worldwide and there are always myths associated with them. Violet agrees that it’s awesome they have one in Indiana, and she undresses to her bra... (full context)
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Finch leads Violet in a dive toward the center of the Blue Hole. They return to the surface... (full context)
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Leaving Violet at the surface, Finch dives as though he’s escaping everyone in his life but Violet.... (full context)
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Violet is sobbing when Finch reaches the surface. She calls him an “asshole” twice, louder each... (full context)
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After a minute, Violet joins Finch and starts throwing rocks and shouting. Suddenly, she stops and asks what exactly... (full context)
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...and not know how to get out of the way. He says he can’t promise Violet perfect days, and he’ll never be Ryan Cross. Violet says she doesn’t want Ryan, kisses... (full context)
33. Violet: The Day Of
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Finch and Violet drive back to Finch’s house in the afternoon. His bedroom is now blue, and Violet... (full context)
34. Finch: The Day Of
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Finch knows that Violet is made of the exact same stuff as everyone else, but she seems to be... (full context)
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...the air and experience the effect. Sure enough, hundreds of people called into the show. Violet asks if this is real, and Finch reveals that it was just an April Fool’s... (full context)
35. Violet: The morning after
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Violet wakes up before Finch and marvels at how quiet he is. He wakes up a... (full context)
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Once Violet and her parents have calmed down, Violet’s dad says that Finch is trouble: he’s had... (full context)
37. Finch: What follows
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...door open, but no one comes to check on him or beat him. He types Violet an apology but says he doesn’t regret anything. Violet replies that she doesn’t regret it... (full context)
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The next morning, Finch rings the doorbell at Violet’s house. Violet’s mom answers and apologetically asks if he’s okay, but she doesn’t move to... (full context)
38. Finch: How to survive quicksand
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...cozy cave. He brings in the jug of water from Mudlavia and a picture of Violet in with him, along with the license plate from the accident site. Finch pulls out... (full context)
39. Violet: The Week After
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Violet goes back to school on Monday and is a little shocked and disappointed that nobody... (full context)
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When Violet and Finch get to U.S. Geography, Finch looks exhausted. After class, they kiss under the... (full context)
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Violet tries to go to sleep after midnight, but she can’t sleep—she’s thinking about Germ. She... (full context)
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After breakfast with her parents on Saturday, Violet tells them she’s going to Amanda’s house. They ask no questions, and Violet bikes to... (full context)
40. Violet: Spring break
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Violet, Violet’s mom, and Violet’s dad are on the NYU campus. Though Violet’s parents are discussing... (full context)
41. Finch: Day 64 of the Awake
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Finch’s dad suggests that Finch bring Violet over sometime. Finch imagines the conversation his dad and Violet’s dad had; he imagines his... (full context)
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...his way to see his girlfriend and he needs flowers. It’s an emergency; he wants Violet to know that “this isn’t a season of death but one for living.” The woman’s... (full context)
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Finch gets to Violet’s house after 11 p.m. and sits in Little Bastard, smoking. He doesn’t want to disturb... (full context)
42. Finch: Days 65 and 66
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...reminds the class not to slack off. Finch writes instead of listening and doesn’t let Violet see what he’s writing. The words seem to disappear as he writes them. (full context)
43. Violet: March 10
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Finch calls Violet after third period, asking her to drive to Southern Indiana to see the Nest Houses... (full context)
44. Finch: Days 66 and 67
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...too loudly, he might “wake up the darkness.” The darkness could do anything to him, Violet, or Finch’s loved ones. (full context)
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...his mind, over and over again: that he’s broken, a fraud, and impossible to love. Violet will figure all of this out soon. Finch’s mind also decides that he has bipolar... (full context)
45. Finch: Day 71
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...are thinking about or have attempted suicide. Finch is exhausted; trying to act normal around Violet is difficult. He doesn’t want her to see, so he’s told her he’s sick and... (full context)
46. Violet: March 18
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Violet doesn’t hear from Finch for three days. It starts snowing on Wednesday, and the roads... (full context)
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Violet is driving smoothly when she gets to Finch’s neighborhood. A woman who must be Finch’s... (full context)
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Violet asks Finch if he’s okay, trying to watch her tone—she doesn’t want to sound like... (full context)
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Violet and Finch write words on sticky notes and then either put them on the wall... (full context)
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Finch explains that he gets in “black, sinking moods” sometimes. Violet says that’s normal for teenagers, but Finch ignores this and tells Violet about the cardinal.... (full context)
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As soon as Violet gets home, she goes into her own closet and sits down among her clothes and... (full context)
47. Finch: Day 75; Violet: March 20
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After U.S. Geography, Amanda comes up to Violet and says she has to tell her a secret. Violet sighs but agrees to keep... (full context)
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As soon as school is over, Violet bikes to Finch’s house. He doesn’t answer, and it seems like Finch’s mom and sisters... (full context)
48. Violet: March 21 and beyond
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When Violet knocks on Finch’s bedroom door, it takes a minute for him to answer. He opens... (full context)
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...that Jupiter and Pluto are aligned in his rendering. This is the “Jovian-Plutonian gravitational chamber.” Violet can only gape at him. She’s so worried about Finch, but this is the nicest... (full context)
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Violet and Finch pass a bottle of vodka back and forth, and Violet says that all... (full context)
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Finch and Violet lie on the floor. Finch tells Violet that Sir Patrick Moore was the first to... (full context)
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...Finch likes to think he’d just be swallowed and get to stop worrying about everything. Violet takes his hand and tells Finch that he’s her best friend. She cries as she... (full context)
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Finch smiles an awful smile and says he doesn’t need help. He’s not like Eleanor—Violet shouldn’t try to save him, just because she couldn’t save Eleanor. Finch says he’d love... (full context)
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When Violet gets home, Violet’s mom and Violet’s dad are watching TV. Though Violet feels terrible, she... (full context)
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It takes Violet hours to fall asleep. She hears rocks hitting her window in her dreams, but then... (full context)
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Ryan finds Violet in the hallway at school on Monday and asks if she’s heard from colleges and... (full context)
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Violet can’t concentrate in U.S. Geography. Charlie and Brenda haven’t heard from Finch in a few... (full context)
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Violet hasn’t heard from Finch by Tuesday, so she bikes to his house. Decca answers and... (full context)
49. Finch: Day 80 (a muthaf#@*ing world record)
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...do not remember days, we remember moments.” Finch remembers running to buy flowers. He remembers Violet’s smile, and how she looked at Finch like he was whole. Violet’s hand in his... (full context)
50. Violet: The rest of March
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On Thursday, Finch starts to text Violet. He writes that “they were all perfect days,” but then he turns his phone off... (full context)
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At school, Violet feels like the only one who notices Finch is gone. School days proceed as normal:... (full context)
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After another two days, Violet starts getting texts from Finch. He writes first that he’s “on the highest branch,” and... (full context)
51. Violet: April
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Easter Sunday falls on April 5. Violet and her parents drive to the A Street Bridge and climb down to the riverbed,... (full context)
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When Violet’s parents don’t say anything about Eleanor, Violet starts to talk about her and Eleanor’s plans... (full context)
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Back at home, Violet thinks about why she wants to start a magazine. She studies her notes and then... (full context)
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Violet hasn’t heard from Finch since March—but now she’s angry instead of worried. She’s upset at... (full context)
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Meanwhile, Ryan and Suze break up, and Ryan asks Violet out. They go to dinner at a fancy restaurant and talk about mundane things. The... (full context)
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On Saturday afternoon, Amanda stops by and asks to hang out. She and Violet play tennis in the street, and that night, they go to the Quarry. Violet texts... (full context)
52. Violet: April 26
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Mid-morning on Sunday, Kate shows up at Violet’s house and asks if she’s heard from Finch. She explains that Finch has been checking... (full context)
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Violet suddenly feels breathless, and Violet’s mom comes around the corner and looks concerned. Violet hugs... (full context)
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Violet drives to Finch’s house. Finch’s mom starts crying as soon as she sees Violet and... (full context)
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Back inside, Violet notices Decca arranging pieces of paper on the floor, just like Finch did with his... (full context)
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Violet goes back downstairs to find that Kate has left to look for Finch. Violet asks... (full context)
53. Violet: April 26 (part 2)
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Violet goes for herself, not for any of Finch’s family members. She knows what she’ll find—and... (full context)
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Violet sees Little Bastard parked on the side of the road before she sees anything else.... (full context)
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Violet takes off her shoes and dives into the water. She swims as deep as she... (full context)
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When the sheriff asks for Finch’s mom’s number, Violet says that she’ll call. Finch’s mom answers the house phone on the first ring, which... (full context)
54. Violet: May 3
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Violet stands in front of her mirror, studying herself. She’s dressed in black and wears Finch’s... (full context)
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At the funeral, Finch’s family stands in the front row. Violet studies Finch’s dad’s back and notices that Finch’s entire family is crying. The funeral takes... (full context)
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The preacher finishes, and Violet thinks that he didn’t mention suicide at all. Officially, Finch’s death was ruled an accident,... (full context)
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...about the “phonies,” and Brenda says that Finch is probably watching and flipping everyone off. Violet asks Brenda if she thinks Finch is somewhere. She says she likes to think Finch... (full context)
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Violet sits in her closet and notices her calendar. She studies all the blank days, the... (full context)
55. Violet: May—weeks 1, 2, and 3
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...a display case near the principal’s office, and kids leave notes to Finch in it. Violet wants to put all those notes in Finch’s pile of bad words. Otherwise, Violet doesn’t... (full context)
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Principal Wertz insists that all Finch’s friends and classmates attend a counseling session. Violet thinks that since Finch’s death was an “accident,” this means everyone can mourn him in... (full context)
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...although getting through this will be hard, “the worst is already over.” Mr. Embry hands Violet the booklet, which is titled “SOS: A Handbook for Survivors of Suicide.” He asks her... (full context)
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When Violet notes that Finch’s family insists it was an accident, Mr. Embry says it doesn’t matter.... (full context)
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That afternoon, Violet reads the entire booklet, and one line sticks with her. It says that the only... (full context)
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...and then show a film about “the realities of drug use.” Charlie leans over to Violet and says there’s a rumor that Finch died because he was on drugs. Violet is... (full context)
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After a minute, Violet asks Amanda what goes through a person’s mind when they think about killing themselves. Amanda... (full context)
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...Mr. Black reminds the class that their projects are due soon. After class, he asks Violet to stay back and tells her she can turn in whatever she has. He understands... (full context)
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That evening, Violet reads through all of her Facebook messages with Finch. Then, she opens their wandering notebook... (full context)
56. Violet: Remaining Wanderings 1 and 2
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Violet drives down to the Kentucky border to visit the “shoe trees.” She pulls over when... (full context)
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Violet sits, waiting for whatever Finch wanted her to see. She looks up and sees Finch’s... (full context)
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Violet pulls in at the site of the world’s biggest ball of paint. She hopes nobody... (full context)
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...to paint over whatever they write so they leave the next person a clean slate. Violet agrees to paint a layer and asks for sky-blue paint. She feels like she’s losing... (full context)
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When Violet gets home, she finds her parents in the living room. She tells them that she... (full context)
57. Violet: Remaining wanderings 3 and 4
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Violet drives to what’s left of the Pendleton Pike Drive-In outside of Indianapolis. It’s been abandoned... (full context)
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Violet heads for Munster, a small town bordered by rivers in Northwest Indiana. She stops at... (full context)
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...sculptures of the angel Gabriel and Jesus raise the dead. They glow in the blacklight. Violet notices that Jesus is holding a plain rock, which she picks up and exchanges it... (full context)
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Later that night, Violet meets Brenda, Charlie, Ryan, and Amanda at the Purina Tower. At the top, they light... (full context)
58. Violet: The Last Wandering
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Violet gets up early the next morning. She can barely drive past the Blue Hole, but... (full context)
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Violet drives north until she sees a Dollar General. She stops in and asks an employee... (full context)
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Violet stops and wonders if Finch came here the day he died, and how he found... (full context)
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Violet notices an envelope sticking out of the Bible. She turns the pages to the envelope... (full context)
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When Violet has the words memorized, she puts the papers back into the envelope and cries. When... (full context)
59. Violet: June 20
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It’s a hot summer day. Violet parks on the side of the road and then hikes over the embankment to the... (full context)
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Violet has written her own epitaph for Finch. It says that he was alive and then... (full context)