An Unquiet Mind

by

Kay Redfield Jamison

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An Unquiet Mind: Chapter 9 Summary & Analysis

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When it was time to return to California, Kay “dreaded” leaving England. She had adjusted to a new kind of life in London and was afraid of what leaving would mean not just for her happiness but for her very health. Daunted by the frenetic pace and demanding work of her job at UCLA, Kay returned to California feeling full of doubts about herself—but upon returning to her old routine, she found that her time in England had been “restorative” enough to allow her to appreciate anew the hustle and bustle of faculty life.
Afraid of returning to the professional realm so close after a major change in her medication, Kay doubted her ability to thrive—but soon found her worries were unfounded. Kay’s belief in her own capabilities begins to shift in this chapter as she starts to have more faith in herself.
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Kay resumed work on a textbook about manic-depressive illness and found herself able to concentrate longer and make deeper insights and associations as she drew upon her own experiences with the disorder as well as the writings of artists and even her own patients. Kay hoped to describe empathetically and accurately the experience of having manic-depressive illness while maintaining a “cerebral” and academic structure for the book—the challenge excited her, and she found herself genuinely enjoying the work even when it grew daunting.
Lowering her dose of lithium allowed Kay to focus more deeply on her work and express all the things she had been longing to express, even within the confines of academic work. Though Kay still maintained a distance from including her personal life in her academic work, this passage represents an important precursor to the turning point later in life after which she’ll begin bridging the gap between her personal experience of mental illness and her professional world.
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Lowering her lithium dose back in England, Jamison writes, had allowed her to “mind and emotions to sway a bit,” much like the building codes in California require structures to sway in order to prevent earthquake damage. Her experience of the world was more intense and her moods more pronounced—but the effect was a positive rather than negative one. She began to understand that she was experiencing the “evenness and predictability most people […] probably took for granted throughout their lives.”
Jamison writes that lowering her lithium dose—under the supervision of a psychiatrist and with the support of a romantic partner—allowed her to experience the world more intensely without dipping into extremes. This is part of Jamison’s complex argument about the gifts of manic-depressive illness—she finds being able to experience intensity and evenness for the first time ever a remarkable thing.
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To illustrate this new experience of the world, Jamison relays an anecdote about tutoring a blind student in statistics. She and the student had a good rapport, and as they grew closer, she felt comfortable enough to ask him questions about what it was like to go through life as a blind man—and began to feel she could understand his experience of life. One day, when she went to meet him at in the blind reading room of the library, she found herself stunned to come across a dozen students reading in the dark in silence. It was one of those moments in life, she says, in which one realizes that they have “no real comprehension of the other person’s world.” Around this time, Kay began to see herself, too, as a “stranger to the normal world.”
Jamison uses this anecdote to illustrate the subjectivity of how people perceive the world. Her own understanding of the world around her has shifted multiple times throughout her life—and even now, well into her adulthood, she still questions whether her perception of the world is “normal” or not. She seems to express a mixture of fear and excitement as she considers the radically different ways in which people perceive themselves and others.
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For Kay, even normalcy was tinged with restlessness and a “low-grade, fitful instability.” This affected the things she believed were possible for the rest of her life—she knew she’d never experience the true evenness of her colleagues’ lives and routines, and she believed that in love, too, she’d have to find a partner whose passions and volatility matched her own. The man who would become her second husband, she writes, has taught her more about “steadiness and growth” than she ever thought possible.
This passage shows how love has transformed Kay’s understanding not just of the world but of herself. Love has allowed her to feel a “steadiness” that she never imagined would be possible—in this way, love has indeed been a kind of medicine.
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After meeting a man named Richard Wyatt—a schizophrenia researcher and the Chief of Neuropsychiatry at the National Institute of Mental Health—at a Christmas party in Washington D.C., Kay didn’t imagine that the quiet academic would be a match for her. However, their “short but convincing courtship” showed her how very different people with divergent temperaments and interests can sometimes be a perfect fit. Within a year of meeting Richard, Kay resigned from UCLA and moved back to Washington to be near him.
Kay’s new relationship with Richard is different from her past romances in that she and Richard click instantly despite being very, very different. Love takes many forms and can heal in many different ways. Kay uses this part of her memoir to show how her vastly different experiences with love and romance over the years have helped her to heal in different ways at different points in her lifelong journey to recovery and wellness.
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Kay had few regrets about leaving California, though departing from UCLA itself was difficult—it was the place where she’d built a life and had secured, against all odds, a tenured position she loved. Richard and Kay moved in together in Georgetown and quickly found that the differences between them were even vaster than they’d known: Kay’s intensity baffled the “low-key” Richard, while Richard’s lack of interest in art, music, and poetry came very close to actively offending Kay. Nonetheless, their love for one another was steadfast and generous, and Richard—like David—was curious, sensitive, and reassuring in regard to Kay’s manic-depressive illness.
As Kay delves into the differences between her and her second husband, she is sure to communicate to readers that it is love which binds them together. Even though they have their differences—and even though Richard and Kay don’t always understand each other—they always respect and care for one another. This, Kay asserts, is the most important thing love can give: unconditional support and understanding even in difficult times.
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Though Jamison writes about how she and Richard have enjoyed a long and happy partnership, there are still times when he fails to fully understand her experiences of mania or depression—and there are times when she fails to be capable of explaining to him what she’s going through. “No amount of love,” Jamison writes, “can cure madness or unblacken one’s dark moods”—and yet Richard’s stillness, quietness, and solidarity have allowed her to feel a sense of hope and unlikely serenity even in her worst moments. Love may not be the cure, Jamison writes—but it is without a doubt a “very strong medicine.” 
This passage, which concludes part three of the book and the section on the idea of love as medicine, shows that Jamison doesn’t believe love is a cure—but she does believe that love has helped her to power through the most difficult moments of her life and to remember her inherent worth and beauty. Love is an essential part of life, and even those suffering from painful and difficult circumstances deserve to know the balm that love can provide.
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