Alone in his room that night (
Gerda sleeps upstairs in
Ida Jungmann’s room these days, to be closer to
Hanno),
Thomas ponders what he has read and how it relates to the meaning of life and to death. Suddenly elated, he realizes that he is “going to live.
It is going to live.” He realizes that “it” and “I” are not as separate as he once thought. He realizes that death is a good thing, a return home after a life of uncertainty. He realizes how misguided he has been to be so frustrated with what he lacks when he should be grateful for what he has. He is part of the bigger story. It doesn’t matter whether he has a son, and whether his own image will live on in that son and in that son’s achievements. Being a part of the collective human experience is all that really matters.