Nick wakes up on Go’s couch with a hangover. Since the diary interview he has been drinking heavily, essentially doing nothing but waiting around for the police to get enough evidence to arrest him—an event Tanner has warned him is coming down the pike sooner rather than later. Go walks into the room with her laptop and delivers the news that the public once again hates Nick—someone leaked the information about the woodshed and its contents, and Nick is now in the public’s crosshairs once more.
Nick feels like a dead man walking—he knows that all of his efforts to get Amy’s attention have failed, and that her plan to have him arrested and charged with her murder will soon come to fruition. He feels resentful and listless, and the slights just keep mounting.
As Nick and Go talk, they snipe at each other more and more—after so many days holed up in the house together avoiding the paparazzi, they’re getting sick of one another. Nick decides to go home, and before Go can stop him, he grabs his keys off the counter and goes out onto the lawn, dodging the paparazzi’s invasive and pointed questions. Go follows him and turns on the lawn hose, spraying the paparazzi with water and laughing. Nick is grateful for Go’s solidarity.
Even though Nick and Go are getting slightly sick of one another, this passage makes it clear that the love between them runs deep. Go is willing to stand up and fight for Nick even in his toughest moments.
Nick arrives home and spends the rest of the day imagining all the different ways in which he’d kill Amy if he could. He becomes lost in a spiral of rage directed at all the women in his life who have let him down—Andie, Marybeth, Go, Boney, and Amy. He has tried his whole life to be a “decent guy,” but he feels that because of these “bitches,” he’s failed.
Nick is turning into the misogynist he never wanted to become. His hatred towards Amy has broadened, leaving him rabidly angry at all of the women in his life, including his beloved twin sister. He’s telling himself that the reason his life is in shambles is entirely the fault of the women around him.
Late at night, there is a knock on the door. It is Bill, escaped from the nursing home once again, ranting and raving about a “little ugly bitch.” As Nick helplessly watches his father spew misogynistic vitriol, he realizes that he does not want to be the kind of man who hates women—he only hates Amy, and if he can find a way to focus that rage, maybe he can stop himself from becoming his father, the thing he’s always feared. He puts his father in the car and drives him back to the nursing home. On the lonely drive back home after dropping Bill off, Nick thinks horrible, terrible thoughts about Amy on a loop.
Nick has slid into a pattern of destructive, harmful, and cruel thoughts. Confronted with his father’s example once again, he fears that he has become Bill at last—he resolves to stop blaming his problems on women in general, but continues steadily hating Amy and wishing for her to suffer pain.