I’ll Give You the Sun

by

Jandy Nelson

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The second of the novel’s two protagonists and narrators, Jude is Noah’s twin sister. At the start of the novel, she is a reckless social butterfly who throws herself into securing the attention of the other girls—and especially boys—her age when she begins to doubt her art, and how it measures up to her talented brother’s work. The narration is told in two timelines, and Jude presides over the later timeline, which takes place when the twins are sixteen years old. Having secured a place at CSA through sabotage and subterfuge (she secretly threw away her brother’s application), the frustrated Jude worries that her mother’s ghost is haunting her, and that her sculptures will never have any real meaning. When she is struck by a sudden flash of inspiration and decides to move from clay to stone, she enters into an apprenticeship with the passionate and tempestuous Guillermo Garcia—where she finds herself pushed to make the art she’s been afraid to for years and drawn, against all of her instincts, to Guillermo’s dashing assistant, Oscar. As the superstitious Jude comes into her own, she relies less on the ghost of her Grandma Sweetwine (and her grandma’s bible of superstition and lore) and more on her own heart to guide her.

Jude Sweetwine Quotes in I’ll Give You the Sun

The I’ll Give You the Sun quotes below are all either spoken by Jude Sweetwine or refer to Jude Sweetwine. For each quote, you can also see the other characters and themes related to it (each theme is indicated by its own dot and icon, like this one:
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). Note: all page numbers and citation info for the quotes below refer to the Dial Books edition of I’ll Give You the Sun published in 2014.
Chapter 1 Quotes

[Jude] scoots over so we’re shoulder to shoulder. This is us. Our pose. The smush. It’s even how we are in the ultrasound photo they took of us inside Mom and how I had us in the picture Fry ripped up yesterday. Unlike most everyone else on earth, from the very first cells of us, we were together, we came here together. This is why no one hardly notices that Jude does most of the talking for both of us, why we can only play piano with all four of our hands on the keyboard and not at all alone, why we can never do Rochambeau because not once in thirteen years have we chosen differently. It’s always: two rocks, two papers, two scissors. When I don’t draw us like this, I draw us as half-people.

The calm of the smush floods me. She breathes in and I join her. Maybe we’re too old to still do this, but whatever. I can see her smiling even though I’m looking straight ahead. We exhale together, then inhale together, exhale, inhale, in and out, out and in, until not even the trees remember what happened in the woods yesterday, until Mom’s and Dad’s voices turn from mad to music, until we’re not only one age, but one complete and whole person.

Page Number: 17-18
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Chapter 2 Quotes

That’s when he started telling me I could say no and that’s when I didn’t. Then his whole body was pressing me into the hot sand, burying me in it. I kept thinking, it’s okay, I can handle this. I can. It’s okay, okay, okay. But it wasn’t and I couldn’t.

I didn’t know you could get buried in your own silence. And then it was over. And then everything was.

There’s more, but I’m not going to get into it now. Just know: I cut off three feet of blond hair and swore away boys forever be cause after this happened with Zephyr, my mother died. Right after. It was me. I brought the bad luck to us.

This boycott isn’t whimsy. To me, boys don’t smell like soap or shampoo or cut grass or sweat from soccer practice or suntan lotion or the ocean from hours spent in the green curl of a wave anymore, they smell like death.

Related Characters: Jude Sweetwine (speaker), Dianna Sweetwine / Mom, Zephyr
Page Number: 47-48
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Chapter 3 Quotes

Mom says Jude acts the way she does now on account of hormones, but I know it’s on account of her hating me. She stopped going to museums with us ages ago, which is probably a good thing, because when she did, her shadow kept trying to strangle mine. I’d see it happening on the walls or on the floor. Sometimes lately, I catch her shadow creeping around my bed at night trying to pull the dreams out of my head. I have a good idea what she does instead of coming to the museum, though. Three times now, I’ve seen hickeys on her neck. Bug bites, she said. Sure. I heard while spying that she and Courtney Barrett have been riding bikes down to the boardwalk on weekends, where they see who can kiss more boys.

(Portrait: Jude Braiding Boy After Boy into Her Hair)

Related Symbols: The Invisible Museum
Page Number: 57
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He points to my pad. “So I guess you just talk in there, is that it?”

“Pretty much,” I say. We’re under a streetlamp and I’m trying not to stare but it’s hard. I wish the world would stick like a clock so I could look at him for as long as I want. There’s something going on in his face right now, something very bright trying to get out—a dam keeping back a wall of light. His soul might be a sun. I’ve never met anyone who had the sun for a soul.

I want to say more so he doesn’t leave. I feel so good, the freaking green leafy kind of good. “I paint in my head,” I tell him. “I was the whole time.” I’ve never told anyone I do this, not even Jude, and I have no idea why I’m telling him. I’ve never let anyone into the invisible museum before.

Related Characters: Noah Sweetwine (speaker), Brian Connelly / The Boy from the Roof (speaker), Jude Sweetwine
Related Symbols: The Invisible Museum
Page Number: 70
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“When Castor died,” he says, “Pollux missed him too much, so he made a deal to share his immortality with him and that’s how they both ended up in the sky.”

“I’d do that,” I say. “Totally.”

“Yeah? Must be a twin thing,” he says, misunderstanding. “Though you’d never know it from that Death by Window Maneuver.” I feel my face flush because I’d meant him, duh, I’d share my immortality with him. I meant you, I want to holler.

Related Characters: Noah Sweetwine (speaker), Brian Connelly / The Boy from the Roof (speaker), Jude Sweetwine
Page Number: 104
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After a while, she picks up her fist. I do the same. “One two three,” we say at the same time.

Rock/Rock

Scissors/Scissors

Rock/Rock

Paper/Paper

Scissors/Scissors

“Yes!” she cries. “We still got it, yes we do!” She jumps to her feet. “We can watch the Animal Channel tonight. Or a movie? You can pick.”

“Okay.”

“I want to—”

“Me too,” I reply, knowing what she was going to say. I want to be us again too.

(Portrait, Self-portrait: Brother and Sister on a Seesaw, Blindfolded)

She smiles, touches my arm. “Don’t be sad.” She says it so warmly, it makes the air change color. “It came right through the wall last night.” This was worse when we were younger. If one cried, the other cried even if we were on different sides of Lost Cove. I didn’t think it happened anymore.

“I’m fine,” I say.

She nods. “See you tonight then if Mom and I don’t kill each other.” She gives a salute and is off.

I don’t know how this can be but it can: A painting is both exactly the same and entirely different every single time you look at it. That’s the way it is between Jude and me now.

Related Characters: Noah Sweetwine (speaker), Jude Sweetwine (speaker)
Related Symbols: Rock-Paper-Scissors
Page Number: 118-119
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Chapter 4 Quotes

“This sculpture needs to be made so much you cry like this?”

I turn around. He’s leaning against the wall by the painting of the kiss, his arms crossed.

“Yes,” I gasp out, then say more calmly, “Yes.” Is he changing his mind? The sob begins to retreat.

He’s stroking his chin. His expression softens. “You need to make this sculpture so badly, you will risk your young life by sharing space with a disease-carrying cat?”

“Yes. Totally, yes. Please.”

“You are sure you want to forsake the warm, moist breath of clay for the cold, unforgiving eternity of stone.”

“I am sure.” Whatever that means.

“Come back tomorrow afternoon. Bring your portfolio and a sketchpad. And tell your brother to give you back the sun, trees, stars, all of it already. I think you need.”

Related Characters: Jude Sweetwine (speaker), Guillermo Garcia (speaker)
Page Number: 173
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“I’ve tried everything to get through to her, Guillermo. Absolutely everything. I have this weird book and I scour it for ideas nonstop. I’ve done it all. I’ve slept with her jewelry under my pillow. I’ve stood on the beach at midnight, holding up a picture of the two of us to a blue moon. I’ve written letters to her and put them in her coat pockets, in red mailboxes. I’ve thrown messages into storms. I recite her favorite poem to her every night before I go to bed. And all she does is break what I make. That’s how angry she is.” I’ve started to sweat. “It would kill me if she broke this.” My lips are trembling. Covering my mouth, I add, “It’s the one thing I have.”

Related Characters: Jude Sweetwine (speaker), Dianna Sweetwine / Mom, Guillermo Garcia
Page Number: 192
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Chapter 5 Quotes

A week after Dad’s forgotten birthday, with the rain beating the crap out of the house, Mom and Dad seat Jude and me in the frozen part the living room no one ever sits in to inform us that Dad’s temporarily moving down to the Lost Cove Hotel. […] Mom tells us he’ll be renting a studio apartment by the week until they can work out some issues they’re having.

Even though we haven’t spoken in forever, I can feel Jude’s heart clenching and unclenching inside my chest with mine.

“What issues?” she asks, but after that the rain gets so loud I can’t hear what anyone’s saying anymore. I’m convinced the storm’s going to bust down the walls. Then it does and I’m remembering Dad’s dream because it’s happening. I watch as the wind sweeps everything off the shelves: knickknacks, books, a vase of purple flowers. No one else notices. I grip the armrests of the chair tight.

(Family Portrait: Assume the Crash Position)

I can hear Mom’s voice again. It’s calm, too calm, yellow fluttering birds that don’t belong in this life-bucking tempest. “We still love each other very much,” she says. “We just both need some space right now.” She looks at Dad. “Benjamin?”

Related Characters: Noah Sweetwine (speaker), Jude Sweetwine (speaker), Dianna Sweetwine / Mom (speaker), Benjamin Sweetwine / Dad
Page Number: 259-260
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Chapter 6 Quotes

“This afternoon I teach you to use the power tools. With these you must be so, so careful. The chisel, like life, allows for second chances. With the saws and drills, often there is no second chance.”

I stop walking. “You believe that? About second chances? In life, I mean.” […]

“Of course, why not? Even God, he have to make the world twice.” His hands take to the air. “He make the first world, decide it is a very terrible world he made, so he destroy with the flood. Then he try again, start it all over with—”

“With Noah,” I say, finishing his sentence.

“Yes, so if God can have two tries, why not us? Or three or three hundred tries.” He laughs under his breath. “You will see, only with the diamond blade circular saw do you have one chance.” He strokes his chin. “But even then sometimes you make a catastrophic mistake, you think I am going to kill myself because the sculpture is ruined, but in the end it come out more incredible than had you not made the mistake. This is why I love the rocks. When I sculpt with clay, it feel like cheating. It is too easy. It has no will of its own. The rocks are formidable. They stand up to you. It is a fair fight. Sometimes you win. Sometimes they win. Sometimes when they win, you win.”

Related Characters: Jude Sweetwine (speaker), Guillermo Garcia (speaker), Noah Sweetwine
Page Number: 301-302
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Dad drove us to the post office to mail off the applications. We couldn’t find a parking spot so Dad and Noah waited in the car while I went in. That’s when I did it. I just did it.

I only mailed mine.

I took from my brother the thing he wanted most in the world. What kind of person does that?

Not that it matters, but I went back to the post office the next day, ran all the way there, but the garbage had been emptied. All his dreams got taken out with the trash. Mine went straight to CSA.

I kept telling myself I would tell Noah and Dad. I would tell them at breakfast, after school, at dinner, tomorrow, on Wednesday. I would tell Noah in time so he could reapply, but I didn’t. I was so ashamed—the kind that feels like suffocating—and the longer I waited, the more the shame grew and the more impossible it got to admit what I’d done. Guilt grew too, like a disease, like every disease. There weren’t enough diseases in Dad’s library. Days kept passing, then weeks, and then, it was too late. I was too scared if I confessed, I’d lose Dad and Noah forever, too cowardly to face it, to fix it, to make it right.

This is why my mother destroys everything I make. This is why she can’t forgive me.

Page Number: 305
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I go outside and ask [Guillermo] to teach me how to use the diamond blade circular saw. He does.

It’s time for second chances. It’s time to remake the world.

Knowing I only have one shot to get it right with this tool, I wrap the cord around my shoulder, position the circular saw between Noah’s shoulder and my own, and turn on the power. The tool roars to life. My whole body vibrates with electricity as I split the rock in two.

So that NoahandJude becomes Noah and Jude.

“You kill them?” Guillermo says in disbelief.

“No, I saved them.”

Finally.

Related Characters: Jude Sweetwine (speaker), Guillermo Garcia (speaker), Noah Sweetwine
Page Number: 308-309
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“[Oscar] didn’t save my life and it doesn’t matter how high it is.” [Noah is] getting drunker by the minute, talking with two tongues now. “It’s Mom who keeps me up. It’s like I have a parachute on. Like I can practically fly.” He makes a slow swoosh with his hand through the air. “I sail all the way down so incredibly slowly. Every time.”

My mouth falls open. Yes, he does. I’ve seen it.

This is why he keeps jumping then, so Mom will break his fall?

Page Number: 322
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“Okay. So once upon a time, I saw this cubist portrait my brother did of you and had to have it.” I look at him. “Had to have it. It was love at first sight.” He smiles. “He and I were always playing this game where we’d swap parts of the world for others in a quest for universe domination. He was winning. We’re . . . competitive, that’s the nice way of putting it. Anyway, he didn’t want me to have you. I had to give up almost everything. But it was worth it. I kept you here.” I show him the spot where the picture hung by my bed. “I would stare and stare at you and wish you were real and imagine you coming to that window, just like you did tonight.”

He bursts out laughing. “That’s incredible! We’re absolutely split-aparts.”

“I don’t know if I want a split-apart,” I say honestly. “I think I need my own soul.”

Page Number: 335
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Chapter 8 Quotes

I take him by the shoulders. “Noah.” My voice has returned. “It wasn’t your fault. It wasn’t.” I repeat the words until I’m sure he’s heard them, believes them. “It wasn’t anyone’s. It just happened. This terrible thing happened to her. This terrible thing happened to us.”

And then it’s my turn. I’m being shoved forward, shoved right out of my skin with just how terrible—Mom ripped out of my life the very moment I needed her the most, the bottomless unconditional shielding sheltering love she had for me taken forever. I let myself feel the terrible, surrender to it finally instead of running from it, instead of telling myself it all belongs to Noah and not to me, instead of putting an index of fears and superstitions between me and it, instead of mummifying myself in layers of clothing to protect myself from it, and I’m falling forward with the force of two years of buried grief, the sorrow of ten thousand oceans finally breaking inside me—

I let it. I let my heart break.

And Noah is there, strong and sturdy, to catch me, to hold me through it, to make sure I’m safe.

Related Characters: Noah Sweetwine (speaker), Jude Sweetwine (speaker), Dianna Sweetwine / Mom
Page Number: 348
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“Let’s go,” Noah says, and we’re running together into the woods like we used to, and I can see how he’ll draw it later, with the redwoods bowing, the flowers opening like houses for us to enter, the creek following behind us in winding wending color, our feet inches above the ground.

Or maybe he’ll do it like this: the forest a blur of green over our heads while we lie on our backs, playing Rochambeau.

He picks rock. I pick scissors. I pick paper. He picks scissors. He picks rock. I pick paper. We give up, happily. It’s a new age. […]

I roll on my side to face him. “So can you believe how weird I’ve gotten and how normal you’ve gotten?” “It’s astounding,” he says, which cracks us both up. “Except most of the time,” he adds, “I feel like I’m undercover.”

“Me too.” I pick up a stick, start digging with it. “Or maybe a person is just made up of a lot of people,” I say. “Maybe we’re accumulating these new selves all the time.” Hauling them in as we make choices, good and bad, as we screw up, step up, lose our minds, find our minds, fall apart, fall in love, as we grieve, grow, retreat from the world, dive into the world, as we make things, as we break things.

Related Characters: Noah Sweetwine (speaker), Jude Sweetwine (speaker)
Page Number: 353-354
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“How do you feel about moving? Not out of Lost Cove but to another house. […] A houseboat.” I can’t decide what’s more amazing: the words coming out of Dad’s mouth or the expression on his face. […] “I think we need an adventure. The three of us together.”

“You want us to live on a boat?” I ask.

“He wants us to live on an ark, ” Noah answers, awe in his voice.

“I do!” Dad laughs. “That’s exactly right. I’ve always wanted to do this.” Really? News to me. Um, who is this man? “I just did some research and you will not believe what’s for sale down by the marina.” He goes to his briefcase and pulls out some pictures he must’ve printed from the Internet.

“Oh wow,” I say. This is no rowboat. It is an ark.

“An architect owned it previously,” Dad tells us. “Renovated the whole thing, did all the woodwork and stained glass herself. Incredible, isn’t it? Two stories, three bedrooms, two baths, great kitchen, skylights, wraparound decks on both floors. It’s a floating paradise.”

Noah and I must register the name of the floating paradise at the exact same moment, because we both blurt out, imitating Mom, “Embrace the mystery, Professor.”

The name of this houseboat is The Mystery.

Related Characters: Noah Sweetwine (speaker), Jude Sweetwine (speaker), Benjamin Sweetwine / Dad (speaker), Dianna Sweetwine / Mom
Page Number: 356-357
Explanation and Analysis:

I glance around the room, sensing Mom so much, certain this is what she wanted. She knew we each held an essential part of the story that needed to be shared. She wanted me to know she saw the sculptures and only Guillermo could tell me that. She wanted Guillermo and Dad to hear the truth from Noah. She wanted me to tell Noah about CSA and maybe I wouldn’t have found the courage if I hadn’t come to Guillermo, if I hadn’t picked up a chisel and hammer. She wanted us in Guillermo’s life, and he in ours, because we are, each one of us for the other, a key to a door that otherwise would’ve remained locked forever.

Page Number: 367
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Our connection is still so natural, though now, for me, it’s tinged with guilt because of Dad. I turn back to my clay model, start caressing my mother’s shoulder into shape, her upper arm. “It’s like some part of me knew,” I tell him, working the bend of her elbow. “I don’t know what I knew, but I knew I was supposed to be here. You made me feel better too. So much better. I was so locked in.”

“This is what I think,” he says. “I think maybe Dianna, she break your bowls, so you come find a stone carver.”

I look at him. “Yeah,” I say, the back of my neck tingling. “Me too.”

Because who knows? Who knows anything? Who knows who’s pulling the strings? Or what is? Or how? Who knows if destiny is just how you tell yourself the story of your life? Another son might not have heard his mother’s last words as a prophecy but as drug-induced gibberish, forgotten soon after. Another girl might not have told herself a love story about a drawing her brother made. Who knows if Grandma really thought the first daffodils of spring were lucky or if she just wanted to go on walks with me through the woods? Who knows if she even believed in her bible at all or if she just preferred a world where hope and creativity and faith trump reason? Who knows if there are ghosts (sorry, Grandma) or just the living, breathing memories of your loved ones inside you, speaking to you, trying to get your attention by any means necessary? Who knows where the hell Ralph is? (Sorry, Oscar.) No one knows.

So we grapple with the mysteries, each in our own way.

Page Number: 369
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Jude Sweetwine Character Timeline in I’ll Give You the Sun

The timeline below shows where the character Jude Sweetwine appears in I’ll Give You the Sun. The colored dots and icons indicate which themes are associated with that appearance.
Chapter 1
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...that Zephyr is showing him mercy because Zephyr has a crush on his twin sister, Jude, a talented surfer who has recently begun to catch the eyes of several boys from... (full context)
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The next night at dinner, Noah, Jude, and their parents, Dianna and Benjamin Sweetwine, are gathered around the table. Mom announces that... (full context)
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Dad speaks up to remind Noah and Jude to listen to their mother’s story “metaphorically,” but Mom ignores him and launches into a... (full context)
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...as if the tension between his parents is turning the air around them all black. Jude speaks up and asks what Grandma Sweetwine’s message was after all. Mom animatedly reveals that... (full context)
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...is one of the best in the country. She excitedly suggests that she, Noah, and Jude start taking weekly trips to the local art museum and having “drawing contests.” Noah can... (full context)
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Dad and Mom, on the brink of an argument, order “NoahandJude” to take their plates into the other room and finish eating. The two dutifully obey,... (full context)
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This comforts Jude, who scoots closer to Noah so that they are shoulder-to-shoulder—this position, “the smush,” is how... (full context)
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The following weekend, Noah and Jude are at an art museum with their mother—she won the argument, and the two of... (full context)
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As Mom and Jude continue discussing Grandma Sweetwine and ghosts, Mom wonders aloud about what kind of ghost she... (full context)
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Mom asks to see Noah and Jude’s sketchbooks and examine the work they did while going through the museum. Noah excitedly shoves... (full context)
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...art inside of them. Mom compliments Noah on his drawings—but doesn’t even ask to see Jude’s work. (full context)
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Noah reflects on a game he and Jude often play. The game is called The Drowning Game, and in it he and Jude... (full context)
Chapter 2
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Three years later, sixteen-year-old Jude is standing next to a sculpture she’s made in the studio at CSA. She has... (full context)
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As Sandy Ellis, the clay instructor at CSA, begins facilitating Jude’s critique, Jude scans her classmates’ faces. Noah is not among them, and she knows that... (full context)
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Sandy encourages the class to offer some thoughts about “CJ’s” project. Jude reveals that everyone at CSA calls her CJ—short for “Calamity Jude”—because her work has a... (full context)
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One of Jude’s classmates—a boy named Caleb she would think was hot if she weren’t in the midst... (full context)
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For the rest of class, Jude’s classmates continue skewering her work. Towards the end of the critique, as one of Jude’s... (full context)
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In Sandy’s office, Jude stares at a print of Michelangelo’s David hanging on the wall. Sandy remarks that Jude’s... (full context)
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Jude admits that she doesn’t belong at CSA, and actually asks Sandy to give her spot... (full context)
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Sandy urges Jude to get back to basics and focus on what she needs to say through her... (full context)
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Sandy tells Jude that if she wants to work in stone, she’ll need to mentor with someone outside... (full context)
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Jude wanders through the foggy streets of Lost Cove towards the address where the “master carver”... (full context)
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Cold, anxious, and damp, Jude begins growing nervous about how to approach Guillermo Garcia. She spots a church at the... (full context)
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The English guy apologizes for startling Jude in return, and explains that he was taking photographs of the church. As he points... (full context)
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The English guy says Jude’s camera shyness is a shame—he thinks she looks like an “angel” sitting in the pews,... (full context)
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As Jude leaves the church, she chastises herself for almost letting her guard down fully with a... (full context)
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Soon, Jude is standing in front of the address where Guillermo Garcia’s studio is located. Grandma Sweetwine... (full context)
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Garcia orders Jude to go away and then closes the door on her. Jude, frightened but determined, knocks... (full context)
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Jude heads down to the beach to wait in the brush for Noah. He comes here... (full context)
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Noah and his friend Heather arrive at the beach, and Jude watches as Noah jumps from the cliff and flies through the air. She does a... (full context)
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...as soon as he leaves the house. He spots them down at the beach—they’re with Jude, and a group of pretty girls in bright bikinis. Jude has been hanging with this... (full context)
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Jude is still making her flying sand women, though, and Noah has been following her down... (full context)
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...next morning, while working on a drawing of the boy from the roof, Noah hears Jude calling him from the hall. He quickly flips the page in his sketchpad back over... (full context)
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Jude sits on Noah’s bed and asks him who the model in the drawing is. Noah... (full context)
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Noah tells Jude he’ll give it to her—in exchange for the sun, stars, oceans, and trees. This is... (full context)
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Dad leaves the room, and Jude asks Noah if he wants to play Ouija board—she has found one in Grandma’s old... (full context)
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...looking for meteorites and exploring. As Noah leans back in his seat to picture Brian, Jude walks in and asks Noah about his friendship with Brian. She reveals that all of... (full context)
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...down the street towards Brian’s house, and Brian asks why Noah was so short with Jude. Noah doesn’t have the chance to answer—his neighbor’s parrot begins squawking about “Ralph” again, and... (full context)
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...says he’d do the same—but secretly he means he’d do it for Brian, not for Jude(full context)
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...blow-in, but a cool kid just as capable of blending in and making friends as Jude is. (full context)
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The next morning, Noah overhears Dianna and Jude arguing in the hallway. They are preparing to go into the city together for a... (full context)
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The argument ends, and Jude comes into Noah’s room. She apologizes for trying to intrude on his evening with Brian... (full context)
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That night, Noah blows Jude off to hang out with Brian, and continues blowing her off each night that week.... (full context)
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One afternoon, Noah comes home and finds a note on the kitchen table—it is from Jude to Dianna, and asks Dianna to come down to the beach to see one of... (full context)
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Brian and Jude are there—Brian is talking to Courtney, and Jude is talking to a group of guys.... (full context)
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...notices when the next set of names are called, and is stunned when he sees Jude take Brian by the hand and lead him into the closet. (full context)
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Noah’s mind wanders and he imagines Jude and Brian locked in a passionate embrace. Upset, he tells the English guy he’s going... (full context)
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...He wonders who moved it, and starts it up. He deletes all his pictures of Jude’s flying sand women, erasing his sister’s talent from the world. He goes to Jude’s room,... (full context)
Chapter 4
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Jude sits at her computer, looking up information about Guillermo Garcia on the internet. Meanwhile, she... (full context)
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Jude finds some images of Garcia’s work, and is amazed by his stone sculptures. As she... (full context)
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Noah asks Jude if she would be “cool” with him and his friends having a house party while... (full context)
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Jude calls Noah out for finding her embarrassing, to which he pulls several beans and seeds... (full context)
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Jude knows what was going on between Brian and Noah that fateful summer—she could see Noah’s... (full context)
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Jude tells Noah to go ahead and throw the party. Noah asks her if she’ll come,... (full context)
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Benjamin appears in the doorway. Jude muses on how her dead parent is more present than her living one—Dad wanders the... (full context)
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The parrot next door begins squawking about Ralph, and Benjamin, Noah, and Jude roll their eyes in unison. Jude’s dad begins asking her a question but stops and... (full context)
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Jude opens her bedroom window for some fresh air—she is worried about both Dad and Noah... (full context)
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A week later, Benjamin is out of town and Noah’s party is raging. Jude wants to escape the chaos of the party, and decides to head out to Guillermo... (full context)
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Once at Garcia’s, Jude sees that the lights in the rooms at the back of the building are on.... (full context)
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Jude is mesmerized as she watches Garcia deftly mold the clay. She recalls elements of the... (full context)
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Jude remembers reading a line from an interview-slash-profile her mother did of Garcia for an art... (full context)
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After returning home to sleep, Jude comes back to the fire escape early the next morning. Garcia is still in the... (full context)
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Jude attempts to jump off the bottom fire escape and nearly falls on her face—until she... (full context)
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Jude is slightly nervous as she follows Guillermo through the dark, dusty halls of his home... (full context)
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Jude begins telling Guillermo about the game she and Noah played as children, in which they... (full context)
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Guillermo begins cleaning up—he is covered in clay from his long night of work. Jude reluctantly plays with his “bad-luck” cat, Frida, as Guillermo washes his arms and hair in... (full context)
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Guillermo finishes washing up, and then takes Jude on a tour of the large studio space down the hall, where Guillermo’s giant rock... (full context)
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Guillermo and Jude sit down for coffee, and Guillermo explains that when she came to him for the... (full context)
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...explaining that all he wants is to work—he doesn’t know if he’ll ever teach again. Jude resignedly stands up and thanks Guillermo for his time. She begins crying as she turns... (full context)
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Jude leaves Guillermo’s, elated that he has agreed to take her on as a student. As... (full context)
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The English guy mentions that the photos he took of Jude in the church have been developed. He asks if Jude wants to see them, but... (full context)
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The next afternoon, Jude lets herself into Guillermo’s and heads down the hall towards the studio. She is nervous—both... (full context)
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The English guy tosses yet another orange at Jude, and she catches it. He takes a bite of his donut and moans—Jude realizes that... (full context)
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Oscar tells Jude that Guillermo saved his life once—a while ago, Guillermo found Oscar half-dead from pills and... (full context)
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Jude eats a donut, and then Guillermo—addressing her as CJ—tells her it’s time to get to... (full context)
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...climbs into Oscar’s lap, and he jokingly remarks that he has a way with women. Jude replies that she wouldn’t notice, as she’s on a “boy boycott.” Oscar, grinning, tells Jude... (full context)
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...down the hall to the drawing studio while Guillermo sits down and begins looking through Jude’s sketchbook. When Guillermo gets to the blobs, Jude explains that her dead mother’s ghost destroys... (full context)
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Guillermo explains that when he looks at Jude’s blobs, he doesn’t see any of her in them—he wants for Jude to channel into... (full context)
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Guillermo explains that Jude needs to start with clay and practice rocks before she moves on to the real... (full context)
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In the smaller studio, Oscar disrobes while Jude experiences “penis-panic.” Guillermo instructs Jude to start drawing, and tells Oscar to change position every... (full context)
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As Jude begins drawing faster and faster, starting a new drawing every ten or fifteen seconds, Guillermo... (full context)
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Later, Jude is in another room waiting for Guillermo to return from an errand. Oscar, now fully... (full context)
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Oscar asks Jude if he can photograph her nude sometime—he says it’s “only fair,” since she’s drawn him... (full context)
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Jude hears a pair of heels tapping on the floor in the hall—Oscar explains that someone... (full context)
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...is dressed like a pinup girl and “glitters.” She kisses Oscar on the mouth, and Jude’s heart sinks. She is deeply confused. Oscar introduces Sophia and “CJ,” but falsely states that... (full context)
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Oscar and Sophia leave, and Jude runs to the window to look down at the street. She sees Sophia climb onto... (full context)
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Jude explores Guillermo’s home, pressing against a door that’s been left ajar and entering a study... (full context)
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Jude picks through the papers, finding consignment forms from galleries, proposals, and press releases from past... (full context)
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Jude hears the front door creak open, and knows she needs to get out of the... (full context)
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Jude goes into the larger studio to find Guillermo, who asks her if she’s ready for... (full context)
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When Jude returns to her bedroom, she finds Noah there, sifting through her sketchpad. She confronts him... (full context)
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Jude says only that she’s planning on working on a sculpture of their mother in marble... (full context)
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Jude arrives at Guillermo’s the next morning to find a note taped to the door—Be back... (full context)
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Grandma and Jude stare together at Guillermo’s wall mural of the entwined lovers, and Jude wonders aloud what... (full context)
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Becoming sincere, Oscar tells Jude that he’s sorry for her losses—of both her mother and her grandmother. He then reassures... (full context)
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Oscar thanks Jude for calling him out on his devilish and flirtatious nature—he confesses that deep down it’s... (full context)
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Jude shakes Oscar’s hand and declares the deal done. At the same time, as their hands... (full context)
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Jude asks Oscar why he puts on a front—Oscar asks Jude the same question back. Jude... (full context)
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Oscar attempts to lighten the mood by asking Jude if she likes him better when he’s “full of it,” but Jude insists she wants... (full context)
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As Jude waits for Guillermo to return from his errand so that she can start carving, she... (full context)
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When Guillermo returns, he and Jude begin their daily carving lesson. Jude attempts to throw herself into the lesson to distract... (full context)
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Guillermo gives Jude a bag of clay and tells her to make a small-scale rendering of what she... (full context)
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As Jude hammers into the stone, she remembers a day not long after their mother died—the day... (full context)
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An exhausted Jude heads back inside from the outdoor work area to find Guillermo, cursing in Spanish, pummeling... (full context)
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Jude wanders into the loft where Oscar sleeps. She inspects his room and lies down on... (full context)
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Jude begins rifling through Oscar’s books and papers, and find an essay he wrote for an... (full context)
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Finally, Jude lifts Oscar’s jacket off of a hanger and puts it on. The note to “Dearest”... (full context)
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At that moment, Jude hears footsteps climbing the stairs—and two voices. Oscar is talking with a girl—a new girl,... (full context)
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Outside, Jude feels around Oscar’s jacket until she finds a picture tucked into the lining—a picture of... (full context)
Chapter 5
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It is the day after Brian has left for boarding school. Noah sneaks into Jude’s room while she’s in the shower and sees a chat pulled up on her computer—she... (full context)
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Since the summer, Noah has grown three inches. Jude has maintained her online communication with “Spaceboy” and become obsessed with surfing. There is a... (full context)
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Back in the house, Noah goes into his bedroom—where Jude has kicked a bucket of water onto his carpet in retaliation—and sees the date and... (full context)
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A week later, Dianna and Benjamin sit Noah and Jude down and explain that Benjamin is going to temporarily move into a studio apartment so... (full context)
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Later that evening, Jude and Noah stand at the window, shoulder to shoulder, and watch their father load a... (full context)
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...sleep. As he lies in bed staring at the ceiling, his bedroom door opens, and Jude walks in. She crawls into bed with Noah, and Noah confesses that he always wished... (full context)
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There is a silence between the two, and then Jude sits on Noah’s chest and screams in his face that nothing happened between her and... (full context)
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Jude asks if Noah will stop hating her now, and Noah says he never hated her.... (full context)
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...that Brian will be coming back to town soon. As Noah heads to the kitchen, Jude stops him, and orders him not to eat one morsel of Mom’s food in protest... (full context)
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...ecstatic to see Brian again, and immediately wants to do “everything” with him. Brian greets Jude, and then asks Noah if he wants to go for a walk. Noah happily agrees.... (full context)
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...tells her that it’s “all [her] fault” that Dad has left and that he and Jude are miserable. Dianna insists that she wants to talk about Noah, not about her own... (full context)
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...of art which he leaves on his mother’s bed before going out to look for Jude. Noah can’t find her anywhere, though—Brian is nowhere to be seen, either. (full context)
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...lap—he drew her and the sculptor kissing in the foreground, and drew himself, Benjamin, and Jude watching in the background. Dianna tearfully says that she wishes Noah hadn’t followed her. Noah... (full context)
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Jude lies in bed, but she cannot sleep: she keeps thinking of Oscar kissing Brooke, of... (full context)
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Jude thinks she hears a noise in the house—she grabs a baseball bat from under her... (full context)
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Jude wonders what things would be like if Dianna had lived and moved back home, as... (full context)
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Jude dabs on some perfume, remembering a time when Dianna was still alive. After catching Jude... (full context)
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Back in her room, Jude feels overwhelmed with emotion. When she’s feeling something, Noah is often feeling it too, and... (full context)
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Jude goes over to the computer and begins searching for Brian on the internet. She reads... (full context)
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In the morning, Jude gets up and heads straight to Guillermo’s—she is determined to get “NoahandJude” out of her... (full context)
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Jude leaves the warehouse and goes to the church for an hour or so. When she... (full context)
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Guillermo teaches Jude to use power tools on her rock rather than a hammer and chisel, but warns... (full context)
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Jude begins working—as she does, she becomes lost in thought, and recalls the afternoon her mother... (full context)
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Jude reflects even more deeply on what happened in the wake of Mom’s death. Noah became... (full context)
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For weeks, Jude told herself that she would come clean to both Noah and her dad. But every... (full context)
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Guillermo offers Jude a cup of coffee and a short break, but Jude insists she needs to continue... (full context)
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Jude goes into the warehouse and uses Oscar’s computer to send an email to Sandy at... (full context)
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Jude returns outside and asks Guillermo to show her how to use the toughest tool he... (full context)
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Jude walks home after the sun has gone down, feeling light and free for the first... (full context)
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As Jude arrives at the cliffs, she has a bad feeling, and worries that her decision to... (full context)
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As Jude turns around and faces Zephyr for the first time in years, she is reminded of... (full context)
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Jude asks if Noah went home, but Zephyr points up to a bluff that is at... (full context)
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As they climb the bluff, Zephyr reminds Jude of a favor she asked him long ago—to look out for Noah. Jude wheels around,... (full context)
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As Jude reaches the top of the hill, she hears an odd chanting: a group of kids... (full context)
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When Jude wakes up, she wonders if she is hallucinating—the first thing she sees is Oscar lying... (full context)
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As Jude and Noah talk at and over one another, Oscar realizes they are brother and sister,... (full context)
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Jude prods Noah to thank Oscar for saving his life, but Noah insists that it’s Mom... (full context)
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Oscar helps Noah up and begins walking him and Jude home. On the way, Jude and Oscar’s hands brush a few times, and Jude wonders... (full context)
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Later that evening, Jude sits at her desk finishing up the studies for Mom’s sculpture in preparation for showing... (full context)
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Soon there is a tap on the window—Jude asks if it is Oscar, and when she hears his voice in response, she quickly... (full context)
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In a flash of realization, Jude realizes that Oscar is the guy from all of Noah’s drawings—the dream-guy whose likeness once... (full context)
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Oscar comes into Jude’s bedroom and begins poking around. As he looks at old pictures of Jude surfing—and cliff-diving... (full context)
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Oscar admits that he is terrified of Jude—the depth of their emotional connection is something new and frightening. She has the power, he... (full context)
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As the two begin kissing again, Jude remarks that she feels they are “split-aparts”—ancient creatures whose souls resided in one body, but... (full context)
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As Oscar continues looking around Jude’s room, he picks up a photograph of her with Noah and her parents. As he... (full context)
Chapter 8
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The next morning, Jude arrives at Day Street with her sketchbook and presents Guillermo with the studies of her... (full context)
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...asserting that no man has ever loved a woman as deeply as Guillermo loved Dianna. Jude is disoriented as she absorbs the information, and realizes it wasn’t her age that freaked... (full context)
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Jude asks Noah to explain—Noah tearfully confesses that Dianna was on her way to ask Dad... (full context)
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Jude at last understands why her father has been so preoccupied all these years, and why... (full context)
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As Jude and Noah make their way home through the woods, Jude realizes that Grandma’s last aphorism... (full context)
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Jude admits that she has something to tell Noah, too, and at last comes clean about... (full context)
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...Dad, of Heather, and Guillermo’s stone giants. Noah has been remaking the world all along. Jude takes out her phone and begins snapping pictures, telling Noah that he’ll for sure get... (full context)
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Noah promises Jude he isn’t mad at her, and the two of them, ecstatic to at least have... (full context)
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As Jude thinks about her mother, she finds herself torn between two thoughts: she is thrilled that... (full context)
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Jude reveals that after Noah told Dad the truth, Dad received the news calmly. He seemed... (full context)
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Jude asks to help cook, and she begins slicing a pepper when there is a knock... (full context)
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Jude follows Oscar out to the backyard, where they sit down together. He begins telling Jude... (full context)
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Oscar reveals that Dianna always thought Oscar and Jude were kindred spirits—but that she wouldn’t allow them to meet until Oscar had been sober... (full context)
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Oscar tells Jude that he wants to be great friends with her, and promises to wait for her... (full context)
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The next day, Jude and Noah approach Guillermo’s studio. Jude reflects on her feelings about Guillermo—she has gone back... (full context)
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As Jude and Noah walk into the warehouse, Jude is shocked by how clean everything is—as they... (full context)
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As Jude looks around the studio, she realizes that all of the coincidences and collisions have perhaps... (full context)
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Guillermo sets Noah up with canvases and paint, and then goes to check on Jude, who is working in the yard. Guillermo tells Jude that while Noah looks more like... (full context)
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Two weeks later, Jude and Benjamin arrive back at the house after a swim in the ocean. As Jude... (full context)