Christopher used to think that his parents would get divorced, because they argued so often about his behavioral problems, such as screaming, breaking things, and refusing to touch anything brown or yellow. He has fewer behavioral problems now, but his parents used to yell at each other and at him about the things he would do.
Here, Christopher reveals that even before his mother died, his life at home was far from ideal. He’s very aware of the central role that he played in his parents’ conflicts, though he doesn’t express guilt about it. He also knows what he has done wrong in the past and can see that he has matured over time.