The Girl on the Train

by

Paula Hawkins

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Rachel Watson is the titular girl on the train and the novel’s primary narrator and protagonist. A divorcee and alcoholic in her mid-thirties, Rachel has also recently lost her job and seemingly her prospects for the future. She spends her days riding trains back and forth from London in hopes of escaping her loneliness, boredom, and misery. Rachel enjoys glimpsing a young and loving couple who live along the tracks in the suburb of Witney, where the train stops each day at the signal. This couple lives at 23 Blenheim Road, just down the street from where Rachel herself used to live with her ex-husband, Tom. One day, Rachel happens to see the wife of the house cheating on her husband—something that makes Rachel angry and obsessed because it reminds her of the humiliation that Tom’s affair caused her. Soon after, Rachel wakes up one Sunday morning covered in bumps, bruises, and lacerations but unable to remember what she did the night before. She then discovers that the young woman whom she saw having an affair, Megan Hipwell, is missing—and Rachel becomes afraid that she had something to do with Megan’s disappearance. Rachel knows that the only way to ease her mind is to piece together what transpired that Saturday night—and to find Megan’s abductor before the authorities seek to pin the crime on the unstable, unreliable Rachel herself. Rachel’s own amateur investigation into the matter is hampered by her alcoholism—and it’s built upon a foundation of secrets and lies. She attempts to insinuate herself into Megan’s husband Scott’s life, which leads Rachel to uncover unsettling truths about her own past that have been sullied and corrupted through years of gaslighting and abuse. As Rachel pieces together the truth about Megan’s murder, she discovers the truth about the disintegration of her own life as well—and in the depths of despair and hopelessness, she finds long-forgotten strength within herself. Complicated, jealous, lonely, and at times self-destructive, Rachel Watson is a decidedly unreliable yet engaging narrator. Her journey back to self-worth speaks to the undue pressures that society places upon women—and what happens when women reach their breaking points.

Rachel Watson Quotes in The Girl on the Train

The The Girl on the Train quotes below are all either spoken by Rachel Watson or refer to Rachel Watson. For each quote, you can also see the other characters and themes related to it (each theme is indicated by its own dot and icon, like this one:
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Rachel: One Quotes

I know that on warm summer evenings, the occupants of this house, Jason and Jess, sometimes climb out of the large sash window to sit on the makeshift terrace on top of the kitchen-extension roof. They are a perfect, golden couple. […] While we're stuck at the red signal, I look for them. Jess is often out there in the mornings, especially in the summer, drinking her coffee. Sometimes, when I see her there, I feel as though she sees me, too, I feel as though she looks right back at me, and I want to wave.

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Page Number: 4
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I have lost control over everything, even the places in my head.

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Cathy, Tom Watson
Page Number: 9
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Rachel: Two Quotes

I don't have words to describe what I felt that day, but now, sitting on the train, I am furious, nails digging into my palms, tears stinging my eyes. I feel a flash of intense anger. I feel as though something has been taken away from me. How could she? How could Jess do this? What is wrong with her? Look at the life they have, look at how beautiful it is!

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Megan Hipwell / “Jess”
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Page Number: 30-31
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Something happened, I know it did. I can't picture it, but I can feel it. The inside of my mouth hurts, as though I've bitten my cheek, there's a metallic tang of blood on my tongue. I feel nauseated, dizzy. I run my hands through my hair, over my scalp. I flinch. There's a lump, painful and tender, on the right side of my head. My hair is matted with blood.

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Tom Watson
Page Number: 39
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Rachel: Three Quotes

Maybe it was then. Maybe that was the moment when things started to go wrong, the moment when I imagined us no longer a couple, but a family; and after that, once I had that picture in my head, just the two of us could never be enough. Was it then that Tom started to look at me differently, his disappointment mirroring my own? After all he gave up for me, for the two of us to be together, I let him think that he wasn't enough.

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Tom Watson
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Page Number: 51
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Rachel: Four Quotes

The thing about being barren is that you're not allowed to get away from it. […] My friends were having children, friends of friends were having children, pregnancy and birth and first birthday parties were everywhere. I was asked about it all the time. […] When was it going to be my turn? […] I was still young, there was still plenty of time, but failure cloaked me like a mantle, it overwhelmed me, dragged me under, and I gave up hope. […] I was wrong to suggest that we should share the blame; it was all down to me.

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Tom Watson
Page Number: 78
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On the train on the way home, as I dissect all the ways that today went wrong, I'm surprised by the fact that I don't feel as awful as I might. Thinking about it, I know why that is: I didn't have a drink last night, and I have no desire to have one now. I am interested, for the first time in ages, in something other than my own misery. I have purpose. Or at least, I have a distraction.

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Megan Hipwell / “Jess”
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Page Number: 85
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Rachel: Five Quotes

I'm thinking about her now. I have to convince Scott that I knew her—a little, not a lot. That way, he'll believe me when I tell him that I saw her with another man. If I admit to lying right away, he'll never trust me. So I try to imagine what it would have been like to drop by the gallery, chat with her over a coffee. Does she drink coffee? We would talk about art, perhaps, or yoga, or our husbands. I don't know anything about art, I've never done yoga. I don't have a husband. And she betrayed hers.

Page Number: 107
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Anna: Two Quotes

We need to get away from here. We need to get away from her.

Page Number: 140
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Rachel: Eight Quotes

"Honestly, Rachel, I don't understand how you could have kept this up for so long."

I shrug. "ln the morning, I take the 8:04, and in the evening, I come back on the 5:55. That's my train. It's the one I take. That's the way it is."

Related Characters: Cathy (speaker), Rachel Watson (speaker)
Related Symbols: Trains
Page Number: 157
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Rachel: Ten Quotes

It's different, the nightmare I wake from this morning. In it, I've done something wrong, but I don't know what it is, all I know is that it cannot be put right. All I know is that Tom hates me now, he won't talk to me any longer, and he has told everyone I know about the terrible thing I've done, and everyone has turned against me: old colleagues, my friends, even my mother. They look at me with disgust, contempt, and no one will listen to me, no one will let me tell them how sorry I am. I feel awful, desperately guilty, I just can't think what it is that I've done.

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Tom Watson, Rachel’s Mother
Page Number: 179
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Rachel: Eleven Quotes

Megan isn't what I thought she was anyway. She wasn't that beautiful, carefree girl out on the terrace. She wasn't a loving wife. She wasn't even a good person. She was a liar, a cheat.

She was a killer.

Page Number: 209
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Rachel: Thirteen Quotes

“Every time I passed that hole in the wall I thought about it. Tom said he was going to patch it up, but he didn't, and I didn't want to pester him about it. One day I was standing there […] and I […] remembered. I was on the floor, my back to the wall, sobbing and sobbing, Tom standing over me, begging me to calm down, the golf club on the carpet next to my feet, and I felt it, I felt it. I was terrified. The memory doesn't fit with the reality, because I don't remember anger, raging fury. I remember fear."

Page Number: 230
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Anna: Six Quotes

I'm doing the things she did: drinking alone and snooping on him. The things she did and he hated. But recently—as recently as this morning—things have shifted. If he's going to lie, then I'm going to check up on him. That's a fair deal, isn't it?

Related Characters: Anna Watson (speaker), Rachel Watson, Tom Watson
Page Number: 242
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Rachel: Fifteen Quotes

Everything is a lie. I didn't imagine him hitting me. I didn't imagine him walking away from me quickly, his fists clenched. I saw him turn, shout. I saw him walking down the road with a woman, I saw him getting into the car with her. I didn't imagine it. And I realize then that it's all very simple, so very simple.

Related Characters: Rachel Watson (speaker), Tom Watson, Megan Hipwell / “Jess”
Page Number: 271-272
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Anna: Nine Quotes

"I don't believe you," I say. "Why would he lie about that?"

"Because he lies about everything."

Related Characters: Anna Watson (speaker), Rachel Watson (speaker), Tom Watson, Megan Hipwell / “Jess”
Page Number: 279
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Rachel: Nineteen Quotes

Tom's lips are moving, he's saying something to me, but I can't hear him. I watch him come, I watch him, and I don't move until he's almost upon me, and then I swing. I jam the vicious twist of the corkscrew into his neck.

His eyes widen as he falls without a sound. He raises his hands to his throat, his eyes on mine. He looks as though he's crying. I watch until I can't look any longer, then I turn my back on him. As the train goes past I can see faces in brightly lit windows, heads bent over books and phones, travellers warm and safe on their way home.

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Page Number: 317
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Rachel Watson Character Timeline in The Girl on the Train

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Rachel: One
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Friday, July 5, 2013. As Rachel Watson rides the morning train into London, she spots a pile of clothes by the... (full context)
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That evening, on the train back to Ashbury, Rachel opens a canned gin and tonic. As she takes her first sip, she lets the... (full context)
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Monday, July 8, 2013. Rachel is back on the 8:04—but she wishes that rather than going into London, she could... (full context)
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That evening, on the train back to Ashbury, Rachel opens a bottle of wine and pours it into a plastic cup. She recognizes some... (full context)
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Tuesday, July 9, 2013. Rachel notices that the pile of clothes from last week is still lying on the tracks;... (full context)
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That evening, on the 5:56 back to Ashbury—a slower train than the morning one—Rachel dreads returning home. Rachel is a lodger, or sub-letter, who lives with a very kind... (full context)
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Wednesday, July 10, 2013. It is a stifling hot morning on the train. Rachel looks out the window for Jason or Jess during the signal stop, but she cannot... (full context)
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That evening, Rachel is sweaty and uncomfortable as she rides the train home. She anxiously watches an expensively... (full context)
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Thursday, July 11, 2013. On the morning train, Rachel picks at a bandage on her finger. Last night, after drinking a bottle of wine,... (full context)
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As the train comes to the signal, Rachel spots Jess on the patio and notices that Jess seems sad. Rachel waits for Jason... (full context)
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That night, on the train home, Rachel finds that she has been unable to stop thinking about Jess all day. She wonders... (full context)
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Wednesday, May 16, 2012. One year earlier. Megan Hipwell—whom Rachel knows as Jess—sits on her patio drinking coffee as the morning train stops just below... (full context)
Rachel: Two
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Friday, July 12, 2013. Rachel, hungover and exhausted, rides the train to London. As the train stops at the signal,... (full context)
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That evening, the 5:56 train is twice as full as it usually is. Rachel feels hot and sick. She reflects on her miserable day: after running into some of... (full context)
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Saturday, July 13, 2013. Rachel wakes to the sounds of Cathy cleaning the apartment, as she does each Saturday morning.... (full context)
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Sunday, July 14, 2013. Rachel wakes up hungover and in pain. Her fingernails are dirty, and her mouth tastes like... (full context)
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Rachel retrieves her phone from her pocket, takes it up to her bedroom, and plugs it... (full context)
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Rachel wakes to the sound of Cathy screaming at her for vomiting on the stairs. Rachel... (full context)
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Monday, July 15, 2013. As Rachel gets up to leave for work, Cathy hands her a formal eviction notice and gives... (full context)
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Later that evening, Rachel is hit by a taxi while crossing the road. In an emergency room in London,... (full context)
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Rachel asks the doctor to call Cathy for her. The doctor steps out to do so,... (full context)
Rachel: Four
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Tuesday, July 16, 2013. Rachel is on the 8:04—but she is headed to Witney, not London. Megan has been missing... (full context)
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Later that day, as Rachel settles into her train seat to head on to London from Witney, she realizes that... (full context)
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Rachel recalls walking around the familiar town of Witney that morning feeling like a trespasser. While... (full context)
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Presently, in London, Rachel goes to a library and sits at a computer, obsessively reading stories about Megan’s disappearance.... (full context)
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Wednesday, July 17, 2013. In the morning, Rachel recalls the night before, when she met with—and lied to—the police. She finds the idea... (full context)
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When Rachel got home, she encountered two police officers: a man in his forties, Detective Inspector Gaskill,... (full context)
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The detectives showed Rachel a picture of Megan and asked if she’d seen her. Rachel said that she hadn’t.... (full context)
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Hours later, in the evening, Rachel thinks about what happened when she’d visited the police station. After asking to speak to... (full context)
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Rachel had gotten a sandwich and sat in the park to eat it. There, she reflected... (full context)
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Rachel had returned to the station and explained that she was drunk—and depressed by a Facebook... (full context)
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Gaskill and Riley began to suggest that perhaps Rachel attacked Megan, believing that she was Anna—both women, they pointed out, are of similar build... (full context)
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As Gaskill and Riley continued to press Rachel about her physical injuries and the taxi accident in London, Rachel decided to play her... (full context)
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Now, on the train home, Rachel feels excited. She has no desire to return home and pour herself a drink—she wants... (full context)
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Thursday, July 18, 2013. Rachel buys three newspapers for her morning train journey and reads the articles about Megan that... (full context)
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That evening, Rachel is back on the train. She was caught in a rainstorm on the way to... (full context)
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As the train lurches to a stop at the Witney signal, Rachel catches sight of the red-haired man again. He smiles at her. Rachel again remembers him... (full context)
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Friday, July 19, 2013. Rachel rides the quiet 8:04 train feeling light, refreshed, and more like her old self than... (full context)
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That evening, Rachel gives in and buys a case of canned gin and tonics. Earlier, she met with... (full context)
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Saturday, July 20, 2013. Rachel wakes up hungover again—she feels the familiar combination of disorientation, shame, and desperation to remember... (full context)
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Rachel recalls the day last summer when she went to Tom and Anna’s and took their... (full context)
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Rachel realizes she has a new email—not from Tom, but from Scott. As Rachel scrolls through... (full context)
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That evening, Rachel takes the train to Witney to meet with Scott. As she approaches the suburb, she... (full context)
Anna: One
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...his laptop. He quickly closes it. Anna realizes that he is reading an email from Rachel. She asks what Rachel has written. Tom tells her it’s the “usual [drunken] nonsense.” Anna... (full context)
Rachel: Six
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Sunday, July 21, 2013. Rachel wakes up and reflects on her meeting with Scott the day before. Yesterday, after getting... (full context)
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When Scott fixed himself a drink, Rachel began feeling badly about having been the bearer of such distressing news—and about lying her... (full context)
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Now, after a slightly boring lunch with Cathy, Rachel sits at home alone and begins itching for a drink. As she starts getting ready... (full context)
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Scott confides in Rachel about the terrible fight he and Megan had the night of the disappearance. He admits... (full context)
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Monday, July 22, 2013. Rachel wakes up feeling hot and stuffy in the warm morning air. She is sitting on... (full context)
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Monday, July 22, 2013. Rachel recalls what happened after Scott pulled her inside. He’d chastised her for coming by when... (full context)
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...that she doesn’t care. As they pass the house, however, Anna is astounded to see Rachel step out the front door of number 15. Anna instinctively reaches forward to pull Evie... (full context)
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...connection with Megan’s disappearance. Tom wants to discuss the news—but Anna is still focused on Rachel and whether she was perhaps in the Hipwells’ house trying to gain access to the... (full context)
Rachel: Eight
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Tuesday, July 23, 2013. As soon as Rachel wakes up, she opens up her laptop to read the news. She is disappointed when... (full context)
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When more news fails to come in fast enough, Rachel gets bored and goes to the liquor store for two bottles of wine. She drinks... (full context)
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Wednesday, July 24, 2013. Rachel wakes up to the sound of Cathy entering her bedroom. Cathy assesses the empty wine... (full context)
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Friday, July 26, 2013. Rachel has stopped pretending to commute to work and has instead been pretending to be sick... (full context)
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After going out for liquor—and finding that her bank account is empty—Rachel wanders the streets of Ashbury in the pouring rain, waiting to sober up enough to... (full context)
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Rachel continues asking Tom for details about the night—but Tom ridicules her for being unable to... (full context)
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Monday, July 29, 2013. Rachel is on the train to London once again. Megan’s disappearance has all but disappeared from... (full context)
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At the house, Scott makes tea while Rachel apologizes again for misleading him and expresses her condolences about Abdic not being charged. Scott... (full context)
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Scott asks what happened between Rachel and her ex-husband. Rachel says that Tom cheated on her with Anna while they were... (full context)
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When Rachel arrives home, Cathy confronts her about having lost her job months ago. Cathy says that... (full context)
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Thursday, August 1, 2013. Rachel wakes from a nightmare in which something unseen is covering her face. She jolts upright... (full context)
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Saturday, August 3, 2013. Rachel wakes from a dream in which she is being pursued through the woods. She can... (full context)
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Rachel has a drink before she gets on the train to go into London. Once on... (full context)
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Suddenly, Rachel does remember something: a fist coming toward her. Rachel panics, stands up, and hurries to... (full context)
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...on the internet—she doesn’t want to see Megan’s face. Anna tries not to think of Rachel, either—though the authorities have confirmed that Rachel isn’t connected to Megan’s disappearance, Anna still fears... (full context)
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Sunday, August 4, 2013. Rachel wakes from yet another nightmare, one in which she has the feeling of having done... (full context)
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Now, when Rachel arrives at Scott’s house, she finds him looking disheveled and defeated. When she asks Scott... (full context)
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As Scott collapses, sobbing, Rachel puts her hand on his neck to comfort him. She assures him that things will... (full context)
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Scott’s mood changes quickly. He rounds on Rachel and orders her to remember something, anything, from the drunken haze of the Saturday Megan... (full context)
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Thursday, August 6, 2013. Rachel has an appointment this afternoon at 4:30 to see Kamal Abdic. She was so excited... (full context)
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Later, as Rachel prepares to board the train home, she reflects on her afternoon at Abdic’s office. She... (full context)
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As the session continued, Rachel delved into the trauma of her husband’s affair but insisted that her drinking was what... (full context)
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Wednesday, August 7, 2013. Rachel wakes from yet another dream in which she feels inexplicably guilty and ashamed—in the dream,... (full context)
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To push the memory from her head, Rachel decides to go on a walk. She tries to pretend she is a normal woman... (full context)
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...home, Anna confronts him angrily about needing to leave Blenheim Road. Between the passing trains, Rachel snooping around, and Megan’s disappearance, Anna has had enough. She gives Tom an ultimatum: she... (full context)
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Wednesday, August 7, 2013. Rachel is taking a shower when her phone begins ringing incessantly. As she steps out of... (full context)
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Rachel hears Cathy coming and hurries Scott into her bedroom—she explains that Cathy might ask questions... (full context)
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Rachel wants to discuss the case—including Megan’s pregnancy—further, but Scott is exhausted. Rachel urges him to... (full context)
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Thursday, August 8, 2013. In the morning, Rachel goes to yet another appointment at Abdic’s office. On her way, she vows to be... (full context)
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Friday, August 9, 2013. The next evening, Rachel is drinking on the train on her way to see Scott—he has asked her to... (full context)
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Saturday, August 10, 2013. Rachel wakes early in the morning. She believes that she is in bed with Tom. She... (full context)
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Later, Rachel heads downstairs. Scott has made coffee. As she walks through the house, she notices that... (full context)
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...road to find photographers swarming the Hipwell house. To her great shock, she watches as Rachel emerges from the house. After returning home, Anna urges Tom to figure out what’s going... (full context)
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Monday, August 12, 2013. Rachel is with Tom in his car, parked at a local lake. Last night, he called... (full context)
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Tuesday, August 13, 2013. The following night, Rachel has a nightmare: she sees another pile of clothes by the train tracks as she... (full context)
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The nightmare bothers Rachel all morning as she rides the train into Witney for her appointment with Abdic. Rachel... (full context)
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Abdic asks if there’s a specific memory Rachel wants to recall. She tells him about a night when she attacked Tom with a... (full context)
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After therapy, Rachel returns to the underpass at Witney to try to jog her memory. As she spots... (full context)
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...with a client. Anna is getting Evie ready for her evening walk when she spies Rachel standing across the street, looking at the house. As soon as the curtains part, Rachel... (full context)
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...get her. Later, as Tom and Anna feed the fussy Evie breakfast, Anna mentions that Rachel was hanging around the house last night. Tom, furious, says there’s nothing more he can... (full context)
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...on in their marriage when she’d wake up and hear Tom on the phone calming Rachel down. She begins to wonder if he’s actually having an affair with Rachel. (full context)
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...been lying to her all along. She is afraid that she’ll end up just like Rachel if she gives into her doubts—yet she cannot stop herself from grabbing a bottle of... (full context)
Rachel: Fourteen
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Thursday, August 15, 2013. Rachel is preparing for a job interview that Cathy has set up for her when Scott... (full context)
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Rachel arrives Scott’s house to find him drunk and in a state of disarray. The house... (full context)
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Rachel and Scott begin arguing. Rachel insists she only wanted to help the bereaved Scott by... (full context)
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Scott accuses Rachel of bringing information about him to Abdic and the authorities. Rachel insists, again, that she... (full context)
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Friday, August 16, 2013. Rachel has barely slept after a drunken, terror-filled night trying to escape memories of her harrowing... (full context)
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That afternoon, after her interview, Rachel is on her way to the train when the redheaded man grabs her arm and... (full context)
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Saturday, August 17, 2013. Rachel calls Tom and asks why he didn’t respond to her note. Tom says that he... (full context)
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Sunday, August 18, 2013. Rachel sits at home in front of the TV, feeling lonely and stupid for believing that... (full context)
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As Rachel falls asleep to the sound of the TV, she experiences yet another sudden flashback—she remembers... (full context)
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...August 17, 2013. Anna is crying—she and Tom have just had yet another fight about Rachel. Anna believes there’s something going on between Tom and Rachel—and she is furious at the... (full context)
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...she starts to believe all over again that he is out having an affair with Rachel. (full context)
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...year—to when Evie was just months old. Anna has been keeping a written log of Rachel’s calls and visits to the house. She checks it against the messages and finds that... (full context)
Rachel: Fifteen
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Sunday, August 18, 2013. After remembering the violence in the underpass, Rachel has some kind of breakthrough. She is able to reflect on memories she’s had while... (full context)
Rachel: Sixteen
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Sunday, August 18, 2013. Rachel arrives at number 23 and rings the doorbell. She feels hysterical and uncertain of what... (full context)
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Sunday, August 18, 2013. Anna tells Rachel that she’s not going anywhere with her. When Rachel asks when Tom will be back,... (full context)
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Anna asks what Rachel is doing here, but Rachel that says Anna knows full well that something is going... (full context)
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Rachel asks if Anna knows about Megan. Anna says that she knows Tom and Megan were... (full context)
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Rachel gently suggests that Anna pack some things for herself and Evie and come stay with... (full context)
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Sunday, August 18, 2013. Rachel watches Anna hurry into the house and embrace Tom, with Evie between them. As they... (full context)
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Rachel calls out to Anna and begs her to see that Tom is lying. She reminds... (full context)
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Tom says that it is exasperating to put up with women like Rachel and Anna. He blames Rachel for growing depressed, heavy, and slovenly, and driving him away—then... (full context)
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Rachel drags Anna outside and begs her to calm down and distract Tom while she herself... (full context)
Rachel: Eighteen
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Sunday, August 18, 2013. Rachel, Tom, and Anna sit in the living room of number 23. Tom begins talking to... (full context)
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Rachel seizes the moment to run for the door—but halfway there, she feels a horrible pain... (full context)
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...2013. Upstairs, Anna puts Evie down and tries to ignore the sounds of Tom beating Rachel. She tries to remind herself that what she wants, after all, is Rachel gone from... (full context)
Rachel: Nineteen
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Sunday, August 18, 2013. Rachel awakens to the sound of rain and thunder. Her head throbs as she raises it... (full context)
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Tom pulls Rachel to her feet. She promises that she still loves him—and that because of that, she... (full context)
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Rachel runs for the fence separating the yard from the train tracks, but she slips and... (full context)
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Tuesday, September 10, 2013. As Rachel rides the train into London, she notices that she’s not the only one looking at... (full context)
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Rachel recalls how Anna called the ambulance that night—it arrived too late to save Tom. The... (full context)
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In the wake of Tom’s death, Rachel and Anna have learned that Tom was never in the army at all. He cut... (full context)
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Rachel’s train ride takes her from London to a coastal town. Tomorrow, she plans to ride... (full context)
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Safe inside, Rachel recalls one more detail about the night of Tom’s death. After she pushed the corkscrew... (full context)