Before his lecture, Randy was worried he’d be too choked up to say the final lines. That day, he’d been on stage for more than an hour, and, thanks to the chemo and his emotions, he was feeling fully spent. But, at the same time, he felt “at peace and fulfilled.” Randy felt his life had come full circle; he first made a list of his childhood dreams at eight-years-old, and now at thirty-eight, that list helped him say what he had to say and carried him through. Though Randy isn’t grateful to his cancer, he’s grateful for the advance notice of his death, as it gave time to prepare his family for the future and, in giving his last lecture, let him “leave the field” under his “own power.” Randy also says that without his list of dreams, he might never have been able to say goodbye to those who meant so much to him, and for that opportunity he is grateful.
Randy’s childhood dreams enabled him to give a lecture about how other people might go about achieving their own childhood dreams. Again, Randy isn’t happy about his cancer, but he is grateful that the advance warning of his death allowed him to give his last lecture and end his career with a strong final performance (rather than a career-ending injury, to follow the football metaphor).
Additionally, as a tech person, Randy never understood when actors and artists would say that things inside of them “needed to come out.” He thought it was self-indulgent. But that day, Randy realized he gave that lecture not because he wanted to, but because he had to. As Randy wound down from the lecture, he offered a summary, but with a twist ending. He told the audience that the talk was about achieving childhood dreams, but there was a head fake—the talk isn’t “about how to achieve your dreams. It’s about how to lead your life. If you lead your life the right way, the karma will take care of itself. The dreams will come to you.”
Even near the end of his life, Randy is open to learning new things and changing his mind, as he does about his long-held belief of the self-indulgence of actors and artists. Also, Randy’s “head fake” throughout the lecture—that this lecture was really about how to live your life, not how to achieve your dreams—is the ultimate example of a feedback loop. Randy gives a lecture about people achieving their dreams, so that they learn how to live their lives, so that they can accomplish their dreams.
Lastly, Randy goes to a slide that reads, “Have you figured out the second head fake?” Randy then tells them—“The talk wasn’t just for this in the room.” It was for his kids, too. Randy clicks to the last slide, which is a picture of Randy standing by the swing set, smiling with Logan and Chloe in each arm, and Dylan sitting happily on his shoulders.
Randy giving his last lecture (and writing this book) serves two purposes: first, it cements his legacy and leaves a record of his most important beliefs, triumphs, and advice, but it also serves as a direct way to communicate who he was to his kids.