Amalia Quotes in Girl in the Blue Coat
Chapter 9 Quotes
Elsbeth is the grief I would allow myself to feel, if my emotions weren’t so covered in darkness.
Because Elsbeth isn’t dead. Elsbeth is living twenty minutes away, with a German soldier. She says she loves him. She probably does. I met him once. Rolf. He was handsome and tall; he had a friendly smile. He even said the right things, like how he knew all the boys wanted Elsbeth and he felt lucky to have her, how he worked for someone high up in the Gestapo and if I ever needed anything, I should let him know because a friend of Elsbeth’s was a friend of his. I shook his hand and wanted to throw up.
So right now, when I’m looking at these schoolgirl notes, […] I’m not distracted by Bas. I can see Elsbeth again.
Chapter 33 Quotes
In the end, this is what I told Mrs. Janssen, when she came home that day at her house: I told her that the girl she sent me to look for was dead, but the girl she wanted me to find might not be. I told her that I could never bring back the girl who she had grown to love over several weeks of hiding, but that I might be able to find the girl whose family was all gone, just like Mrs. Janssen’s son and husband were gone. I showed her the picture, and I told her that I knew it didn’t make sense. I told her I would try to find a way for it to make sense, but it maybe never could. I told her I was sorry.
Her eyes fill with tears. “Have you ever had a best friend?”
I nod. My throat is tight. “Once. Not anymore.”
“Then you know. You know what it’s like to love someone like you love yourself and then lose them.’
I don’t why Mirjam should care, if I think well of Amalia or not. She doesn’t even know me.
Except that, it occurs to me, I would care if it were me or my friends. All of us—Bas, Elsbeth, Ollie, me—I would care that someone understood we were flawed and scarred and doing the best we could in this war. We were wrapped up in things that were so much bigger than ourselves. We didn’t know. We didn’t mean it. It wasn’t our fault.



