Before I Fall

by

Lauren Oliver

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Lindsay Edgecombe Character Analysis

Lindsay Edgecombe is Samantha Kingston’s best friend—and, formerly, her worst enemy. Lindsay is the ultimate cool high school girl—she is popular, sexy, funny, and turns heads in any room. Sam Kingston, having been not just uncool but actively bullied—and bullied by Lindsay herself—throughout elementary and middle school, now seeks refuge in Lindsay’s shadow. Sam idolizes her best friend, but as much as she loves her there is always an imbalance of power and an undercurrent of distrust between the two of them, despite the loyalty the two girls purport to have for one another. Lindsay is easily the most popular member of Sam’s clique, and probably the most popular girl in all the school. Despite her wealth of social capital and high-status popularity that allows her to get away with anything and everything, though, Lindsay has had a difficult and often painful life, and has developed a series of facades and defense mechanisms to hide her true self away from the school and the world. When Lindsay was young, her parents went through a messy divorce, and at the height of the discord, her best friend at the time—Juliet Sykes—witnessed much of Lindsay’s pain, distress, and reactions both emotional and physical to the stress and trauma. When Lindsay began wetting the bed due to stress, she was deeply embarrassed, and when it happened on a Girl Scout camping trip, Lindsay blamed Juliet for the mess. Lindsay then began leaning into the ridicule her friends and classmates easily heaped upon Juliet, and played an instrumental role in deeply ostracizing and “othering” Juliet as the years went on. Lindsay has nursed a bevy of problems and insecurities herself since then—she lost her virginity to a much older stranger, and Sam, who once walked in on Lindsay throwing up a just-eaten meal in the bathroom of a Mexican restaurant, believes that Lindsay is struggling with an eating disorder. Nevertheless, Lindsay puts on a brave face for her friends, and attempts to remain the cool, strong, and utterly fearless leader that Sam, Ally, and Elody want and need. Lindsay’s arc most closely ties in with themes of status, popularity, and social capital, as well as cruelty and loyalty.

Lindsay Edgecombe Quotes in Before I Fall

The Before I Fall quotes below are all either spoken by Lindsay Edgecombe or refer to Lindsay Edgecombe. For each quote, you can also see the other characters and themes related to it (each theme is indicated by its own dot and icon, like this one:
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). Note: all page numbers and citation info for the quotes below refer to the HarperCollins edition of Before I Fall published in 2010.
Chapter 1  Quotes

“Last year I got twenty-two roses.” Lindsay flicks her cigarette butt out of the window and leans over for a slurp of coffee. “I’m going for twenty-five this year.”
Each year before Cupid Day the student council sets up a booth outside the gym. For two dollars each, you can buy your friends Valograms—roses with little notes attached to them—which then get delivered by Cupids (usually freshman or sophomore girls trying to get in good with the upperclassman) throughout the day.

“I’d be happy with fifteen,” I say. It’s a big deal how many roses you get. You can tell who’s popular and who isn’t by the number of roses they’re holding. It’s bad if you get under ten and humiliating if you don’t get more than five—it basically means that you’re either ugly or unknown. Probably both. Sometimes people scavenge for dropped roses to add to their bouquets, but you can always tell.

Related Characters: Samantha Kingston (speaker), Lindsay Edgecombe (speaker)
Related Symbols: Roses
Page Number: 13
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Chapter 2  Quotes

Lindsay, Ally, Elody and I are as close as you can be, but there are still some things we never talk about. For example, even though Lindsay says Patrick is her first and only, this isn’t technically true. Technically, her first was a guy she met at a party when she was visiting her stepbrother at NYU. They smoked pot, split a six-pack, and had sex, and he never knew she hadn’t done it before. We don’t talk about that. We don’t talk about the fact that we can never hang out at Elody’s house after five o’clock because her mother will be home, and drunk. We don’t talk about the fact that Ally never eats more than a quarter of what’s on her plate, even though she’s obsessed with cooking and watches the Food Network for hours on end. We don’t talk about the joke that for years trailed me down hallways, into classrooms, and on the bus, that wove its way into my dreams: “What’s red and white and weird all over? Sam Kingston!” And we definitely don’t talk about the fact that Lindsay was the one who made it up. A good friend keeps secrets for you. A best friend helps you keep your own secrets.

Related Characters: Samantha Kingston (speaker), Lindsay Edgecombe, Elody, Ally Harris, Patrick
Page Number: 106-107
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Chapter 4 Quotes

Anna’s face gets serious, and she takes a long pull of the joint, then stares at me through the cloud of blue smoke.

“So,” she says, “why do you guys hate me?”

Of all the things I expect her to say, it’s not this. Even more unexpected, she holds the spliff out in my direction, offering me some. I hesitate for only a second. Hey, just because I’m dead doesn’t mean I’m a saint.

“We don’t hate you.” It doesn’t come out convincingly. The truth is I’m not sure. I don’t hate Anna, really; Lindsay’s always said she does, but it’s hard to know what Lindsay’s reasons are for anything. […]

“Then what’s the reason?” She doesn’t say, For all the shitty things you’ve done. For the bathroom graffiti. For the fake email blast sophomore year: Anna Cartullo has chlamydia. She doesn’t have to. She passes the joint back to me. I take another hit. […] “I don’t know.” Because it’s easy. “I guess you need to take things out on somebody. The words are out of my mouth before I realize they’re true.

Related Characters: Samantha Kingston (speaker), Anna Cartullo (speaker), Lindsay Edgecombe
Page Number: 217-218
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Ally takes a sip of the vodka she’s holding, then winces. “Lindsay was freaking out. I told you, she was really upset.”

“It's true though, isn't it? What I said.”

“It doesn't matter if it’s true.” Ally shakes her head. “She's Lindsay. She's ours. We're each other's, you know?”

I’ve never thought of Ally as smart, but this is probably the smartest thing I’ve heard in a long time.

Related Characters: Samantha Kingston (speaker), Ally Harris (speaker), Lindsay Edgecombe
Page Number: 254
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Chapter 5 Quotes

It amazes me how easy it is for things to change, how easy it is to start off down the same road you always take and wind up somewhere new. Just one false step, one pause, one detour, and you end up with new friends or a bad reputation or a boyfriend or a breakup. It’s never occurred to me before; I’ve never been able to see it. And it makes me feel, weirdly, like maybe all of these different possibilities exist at the same time, like each moment we live has a thousand other moments layered underneath it that look different. Maybe Lindsay and I are best friends and he hate each other, both. Maybe I’m only one math class away from being a slut like Anna Cartullo. Maybe I am like her, deep down. Maybe we all are: just one lunch period away from eating alone in the bathroom. I wonder if it’s ever really possible to know the truth about someone else, or if the best we can do is just stumble into each other, heads down, hoping to avoid collision.

Related Characters: Samantha Kingston (speaker), Lindsay Edgecombe, Anna Cartullo
Page Number: 285-286
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Chapter 6 Quotes

[Lindsay] doesn't hate [Juliet.] She's afraid of her. Juliet Sykes, the keeper of Lindsay’s oldest, maybe her worst, secret. And it all seems absurd now, the chance and randomness of it. One person shoots up and the other spirals downward—random and meaningless. As simple as being in the right place, or the wrong place, or however you want to look at it. As simple as getting a craving for Diet Pepsi one day at a pool party, and getting swept away; as simple as not saying no.

“Why didn't you say anything?” I ask, even though I already know the answer. My voice comes out hoarse from the effort of swallowing back tears.

Juliet shrugs. “She was my best friend, you know? She was always so sad back then.” Juliet makes a noise that could be a laugh or a whimper. “Besides,” she says more quietly, “I thought it would pass.”

Related Characters: Samantha Kingston (speaker), Juliet Sykes (speaker), Lindsay Edgecombe
Page Number: 393
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She wants me to tell her it’s okay. She needs me to tell her that. I can’t, though. Instead I say, quietly, “People would like you anyway, Lindz.” I don’t say, if you stopped pretending so much, but I know she understands. “We’d still love you no matter what.”

Related Characters: Samantha Kingston (speaker), Lindsay Edgecombe
Page Number: 410
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Lindsay Edgecombe Character Timeline in Before I Fall

The timeline below shows where the character Lindsay Edgecombe appears in Before I Fall. The colored dots and icons indicate which themes are associated with that appearance.
Prologue
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...boyfriend, Rob Cokran, as well as her drunken antics and daily pranks with her friends Lindsay, Elody, and Ally. Before she died, however, Sam thought only of one thing, of one... (full context)
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Sam thought of a time in fourth grade when Lindsay announced that she didn’t want Vicky Hallinan on her dodgeball team because Vicky was too... (full context)
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...in the car. Suddenly, there was a flash of white on the road ahead, and Lindsay yelled something that Sam couldn’t make out—"sit or shit or sight”—and suddenly the girls had... (full context)
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Sam’s best friend Lindsay calls to her from the driveway—it is six fifty-five in the morning, and Lindsay is... (full context)
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Outside, Lindsay is leaning out the window of her “tank” of a car—a silver Range Rover. Lindsay... (full context)
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...point,” Sam says. She doesn’t mind the hegemony of her hometown, and though she and Lindsay occasionally dream aloud together of running away to New York City, Sam finds Ridgeview reassuring. (full context)
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Lindsay is an erratic driver, and as she goes straight through stop sign after stop sign,... (full context)
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Lindsay tells Sam that she is shooting for twenty-five roses this year—last year, she got twenty-two.... (full context)
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Lindsay switches the subject, asking Sam if she’s ready for “opening night.” Sam shrugs, deflecting, but... (full context)
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Lindsay condescendingly assures Sam that everything will go fine between her and Rob, and Sam privately... (full context)
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Lindsay and Sam arrive at Elody’s house to pick her up. Despite the cold, Elody is... (full context)
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...but one knows it when one sees it. Popularity isn’t necessarily about looks, Sam says: Lindsay is gorgeous, but the rest of their friend group isn’t all that much better-looking than... (full context)
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Lindsay pulls into the school parking lot ten minutes before first bell, hoping that she will... (full context)
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...the long Friday which stands between them and the weekend, Sam says: “Kill me now.” Lindsay replies that she’d never let her best friend die a virgin. (full context)
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...what everyone else is doing. As Kent walks away, however, Sam receives a text from Lindsay, asking if Sam is “in” for Kent’s party that evening. Sam writes back, “Obv.” (full context)
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Lindsay clears her throat—she is standing by Rob, and she tells him that he is in... (full context)
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As Juliet exits the cafeteria, Lindsay wonders aloud if Juliet received her Valogram rose from the four of them. Ally says... (full context)
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Lindsay hates Juliet—the two of them were in elementary school together and have been enemies ever... (full context)
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The girls are now talking about how the girl Lindsay cut off in the parking lot this morning, Sarah, is being barred from swimming in... (full context)
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Ally starts talking about how Lindsay’s taking the parking space has now affected Sarah’s life, and about chaos theory, and how... (full context)
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After lunch, Lindsay and Sam decide to cut class and go to TCBY for frozen yogurt. The two... (full context)
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...TCBY, and a questionable Chinese restaurant which once gave Elody food poisoning. As Sam and Lindsay pass the restaurant they spot two of their classmates inside—Alex Liment and Anna Cartullo. Both... (full context)
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Lindsay drags Sam inside the restaurant and goes up to Anna and Alex’s table. She is... (full context)
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...campus, they see Anna and Alex arguing near the smokers’ area while Alex smokes a cigarette—Lindsay smokes a quick cigarette, too, but puts it out when she sees Ms. Winters, the... (full context)
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Sam recounts the history of her friendship with Lindsay. In seventh grade, “after years of trying,” Sam had clawed her way up to the... (full context)
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In seventh grade, at a pool party at Tara Flute’s house, Lindsay pulled Sam upstairs into Tara’s room to show her two tampons she had found in... (full context)
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As the girls load themselves into Lindsay’s car and drive to Kent’s house, Sam has a strange feeling—as if she is “floating... (full context)
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...beer. Ally tells Sam that Elody is hooking up with her newest fling, Muffin, while Lindsay and Patrick are fighting. Sam laughs, noting that Ally always makes her feel better. The... (full context)
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By the time Ally and Sam get to Lindsay and Patrick, the two of them have made up. Elody is hanging on “Muffin,” seemingly... (full context)
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...that she has shown up, at last, to a high-school party. As Ally, Elody, and Lindsay notice that Juliet is there, Sam observes that Lindsay “goes pale” and actually looks frightened... (full context)
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...walks “slowly and confidently” toward Sam and her friends. Juliet stops just in front of Lindsay, looks her in the eye, and calls her a bitch. Juliet then turns on Ally,... (full context)
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...begins to wind down after about half an hour. Sam leaves with Elody, Ally, and Lindsay; on the way out, they see couples drunkenly making out in corners and pass by... (full context)
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...he is sleeping with Sam. As Rob and the random guy get into a fight, Lindsay pulls Sam out the door and towards the car, reassuring her that everything will be... (full context)
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...Rover, laughing hysterically, and Sam has practically forgotten about how bad the night was. As Lindsay begins driving, Sam notices that she is going faster than usual, but doesn’t think anything... (full context)
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Suddenly, there is a flash of white in front of the car, and Lindsay shouts something Sam can’t make out—something like “sit” or “shit” or “sight.” Suddenly, their car... (full context)
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...her to get out of bed. She checks her phone and sees a text from Lindsay: “I’m outside. Where r u?” it says. Sam catches the date in the corner of... (full context)
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...happens. She turns on the shower, but there is a pounding on the door—it is Lindsay, and she tells Sam that there is no time to shower. Sam asks Lindsay what... (full context)
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Sam again tries to get in the shower, but Lindsay insists that she can’t be late for Cupid Day. She tells Sam that she looks... (full context)
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On the drive to school, after the girls pick up Elody, Lindsay swerves and jerks her Range Rover. Sam begs Lindsay to drive carefully, and Lindsay, echoing... (full context)
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...it is because she’s nervous about losing her virginity, reassures her that she’ll be fine. Lindsay jokingly tells Sam it’ll be just like riding a horse, and begins to tease her... (full context)
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...that perhaps all of the previous day’s events were nothing more than a bad dream. Lindsay searches for a choice spot in the lower lot, but the girl she cut off... (full context)
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...same things. Even weirder than the repetitions are the small things that have changed—the girl Lindsay cut off in the parking lot the day before is no longer disqualified from the... (full context)
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...why Sam’s acting weird. Sam opens the stall door and asks Ally why she thinks Lindsay wrote mean graffiti about Anna Cartullo in the stall—Ally says, though, that there are now... (full context)
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...insists on going. Sam feels her phone buzz in her pocket—it’s the same text from Lindsay as yesterday, asking if she is in for Kent’s party. Sam writes back her same... (full context)
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That evening, at Ally’s, Sam and Lindsay lie on Ally’s bed. Sam has had four shots of vodka and is feeling sick... (full context)
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The true story of how Lindsay lost her virginity, though, is never talked about among their friend group—just like the girls... (full context)
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Lindsay insists she wasn’t nervous the first time she had sex, and begins making lewd jokes... (full context)
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...Kent McFuller’s house and enter the party, heading upstairs to the center of the action. Lindsay tells Sam she’s going off to find Patrick, but Sam doesn’t want to be alone,... (full context)
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...to the doctor. Sam knows that Alex is lying about the doctor, as she and Lindsay saw him, once again, sitting in the Chinese restaurant with Anna Cartullo when they cut... (full context)
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...he is “so hot” before realizing that Sam is standing nearby. Sam notes that if Lindsay were there, she would call the girls whores and have them thrown out of the... (full context)
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...behind her to joke that it is the “VIP room.” Sam, overwhelmed, goes to find Lindsay, planning to ask her if they can leave. When Sam finds her friends, she tells... (full context)
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Once again, Juliet approaches Lindsay and calls her a bitch. One by one, she calls Elody, Ally, and Sam bitches,... (full context)
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Sam and her friends are all in Lindsay’s car, heading home from the party. It is 12:38 a.m. Sam is nervous, and her... (full context)
Chapter 3
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Sam’s mother appears in the doorway and urges her to get ready—Lindsay will arrive any minute. Sam protests that she can’t go into school, and her mother... (full context)
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Sam’s mother agrees to tell Lindsay that Sam will be going in late, and urges her to get a little more... (full context)
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“Psychopath alert,” says Lindsay—Juliet Sykes has just walked into the cafeteria. Sam has been so focused on herself today... (full context)
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Lindsay and Sam cut class again and head to TCBY. Sam is happy that everything is... (full context)
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...to grab her Spanish textbook, and is walking down the hall texting Elody, Ally, and Lindsay when she runs into Lauren Lornet and drops her phone on the ground. Sam tells... (full context)
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Lindsay, Elody, Ally, and Sam are all enjoying tuna rolls and movies on Ally’s giant couch.... (full context)
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...Juliet Sykes killed herself because of their rose and the cruel note attached to it. Lindsay scoffs at this, but Ally worries that that’s the reason, too. Lindsay shuts the girls... (full context)
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Sam, now doubly restless, gets up off of the sofa. She tells Lindsay that she is just going to the bathroom, but she makes her way through the... (full context)
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...she is afraid to encounter an apparition of the dead Juliet. Instead, she runs into Lindsay. Sam reveals what she has discovered; Lindsay retorts that she realized at a certain point... (full context)
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Sam returns to the couch—after a little while, Lindsay does, too. Sam lies down and tries to get to sleep, remembering a happy night... (full context)
Chapter 4
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...morning that her plan did not work—the loop has reset. She dresses and slides into Lindsay’s car, barely able to look at her best friend. Sam is angry—she knows that Lindsay... (full context)
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Lindsay comments snidely on Sam’s outfit—Sam has rolled her skirt to make it shorter and is... (full context)
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Elody gets into the car and greets Sam and Lindsay sunnily, but Sam does not return Elody’s happy energy. Elody tells Sam that she has... (full context)
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Sam turns around and accepts the condom from Elody. As she faces front again, Lindsay slams on the brakes, not having stopped soon enough for a red light—the coffee in... (full context)
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...Elody, then, asking her why she never stands up for herself when she knows that Lindsay is a “bitch.” Lindsay tells Sam to leave Elody alone. Sam turns back to Lindsay... (full context)
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...destination. She half-wishes a teacher would stop her and ask her what she’s doing—fighting with Lindsay didn’t satisfy her urge to do something reckless. She arrives at calculus, and Mr. Daimler... (full context)
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...Daimler, has a brief flash of her memory of playing chicken on the road with Lindsay. She understands at last why Lindsay wanted to play—for the thrill. (full context)
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...outside of class, she finds the halls empty. She takes out her phone to text Lindsay and tell her what happened, but then remembers that they are in a fight. She... (full context)
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...voice doesn’t sound very convincing. She admits to herself that “it’s hard to know what Lindsay’s reasons are for anything,” but she and her friends nonetheless do what Lindsay says and... (full context)
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...office just as the last bell rings, and begins searching the throng of students for Lindsay. She exits the building and searches the parking lot just in time to see Lindsay’s... (full context)
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...coming toward her. Tara Flute, Bethany Harps, and Courtney Walker are a trio of friends Lindsay refers to as “the Pugs,” because they are pretty from far away and ugly up... (full context)
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...dining room into the kitchen, and Sam’s stomach “jumps into her throat” as she spots Lindsay. (full context)
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Sam recounts a story from last year: Lindsay went to visit her stepbrother at NYU, and when she returned from the trip, she... (full context)
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...out to a Mexican restaurant where the waiters never card to eat and drink margaritas. Lindsay would barely touch her food, and halfway through the meal she blurted out the fact... (full context)
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Lindsay insisted she’d just eaten too fast, but Sam had no idea whether or not Lindsay... (full context)
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Back at the party, Sam has lost track of Lindsay, Elody, and Ally. She’s been drinking for an hour since she first saw them, and... (full context)
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...of people now taking note of Juliet’s presence—she notices that Juliet’s eyes are locked on Lindsay, and realizes it is Lindsay whom Juliet hates the most. As Sam pushes past Juliet,... (full context)
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...the noises of their laughter bring their mother to the door. She warns Sam that Lindsay will be there to pick her up any minute. Izzy proudly declares that Sam isn’t... (full context)
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...away from her problems and console herself when she was sad. After her friendship with Lindsay started up, though, Sam stopped going to Goose Point. She hasn’t been there in years—until... (full context)
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When Sam gets home, she has three new texts: Lindsay, Elody, and Ally have all texted her the same happy Cupid Day wish. Sam doesn’t... (full context)
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...exist at the same time and wonders if perhaps multiple things are true—maybe she and Lindsay are best friends and hate each other at the same time, and maybe Sam is... (full context)
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...and finds herself navigating to the street where Juliet lives—she remembers hearing the name from Lindsay mentioning it a long time ago. She sees the Sykes mailbox, and as she looks... (full context)
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...Juliet Sykes. The music is so loud, though, that everyone assumes she is looking for Lindsay, so they direct Sam her way. When Sam finds Lindsay, she asks if Juliet Sykes... (full context)
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Lindsay calls to Elody and Ally, telling them that Sam is here, but is busy looking... (full context)
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...feeling, what is going to happen. Sam hears Kent’s voice calling her name, and sees Lindsay’s car coming down the road. Juliet turns to face Sam. “Maybe next time,” she says,... (full context)
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...Sam, and asks if she’s okay. Sam is in shock, and can only say that Lindsay, Ally, and Elody were in the car that hit Juliet. Kent pulls his phone out... (full context)
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Sam hears a scream coming from the woods and watches as Lindsay stumbles up to the road, crying. Kent is supporting Ally as they walk up to... (full context)
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...places his hands on Sam’s arms and she tells him she needs to go find Lindsay at the hospital. Kent tells Sam that she’s freezing, though, and tells her to come... (full context)
Chapter 6
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...first time. As she rushes out of the house and runs down the driveway toward Lindsay’s waiting car, she knows that today, she is going to save two lives—Juliet Sykes’s, and... (full context)
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Sam hops into Lindsay’s Range Rover and greets her best friend happily. Sam thinks that Lindsay looks “clearer” to... (full context)
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When the girls arrive in the lower lot, Sam screams for Lindsay to brake quickly, allowing the girl from the swim team to get the parking spot.... (full context)
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...She is sure that her benevolent move will make things right, and she imagines how Lindsay will react when she sees that Juliet Sykes has more roses than she does.  (full context)
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...becomes dizzy with desire. As Sam is about to say something to Kent, she hears Lindsay calling her, wanting to know if the two of them are going to cut class... (full context)
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...the corner of a room upstairs, talking to another girl. Sam turns around to find Lindsay, but can’t—she knows that Lindsay will have gone off to find Patrick. Sam knows that... (full context)
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...Sam attempts to drag Ally with her towards him, but Ally scoots off to find Lindsay. When Sam turns around to head for Kent, he has disappeared into a room, and... (full context)
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...to be here, just like everyone else. Juliet confesses that she came to tell Sam, Lindsay, Elody, and Ally something. Sam and Juliet say that they’re all “bitches” at the exact... (full context)
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...Sam. She hesitates at the door, though, and begins telling Sam about how she and Lindsay were once best friends. Juliet explains that right before Lindsay’s parents got divorced, their fighting... (full context)
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Juliet goes on to tell Sam that it was Lindsay who wet the sleeping bag on the Girl Scout trip, but blamed everything on Juliet,... (full context)
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...she feels hopeless, but the thought of the vulnerable Juliet pushes her onward. Sam feels Lindsay’s car keys in her pocket—she is the designated driver—and she feels relieved that, at least... (full context)
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An hour and a half later, Sam and Lindsay, having already dropped off Elody and Ally, are sitting in Lindsay’s driveway. Sam remembers being... (full context)
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As Lindsay gets out of the car, Sam stops her, asking if she remembers the time when... (full context)
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Lindsay leaves the car and nods at the car idling behind them—it is Kent’s car. He... (full context)
Chapter 7
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Outside, Sam takes in the cold air and the beautiful sunlight before joining Lindsay in the Range Rover. On the drive to school, as Lindsay complains to Sam and... (full context)
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...the girls place their orders and then head back to the car—Sarah, the girl who Lindsay has been fighting for a spot in the lower lot each morning, is now waiting... (full context)
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At school, Sam splits up with Lindsay and Elody and heads to the room where all the roses are being held. Afterwards,... (full context)
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On the way to TCBY, Lindsay asks Sam why she’s acting so weird today. Lindsay also tells Sam that she heard... (full context)
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...would like. Anna looks up at Sam and half-smiles, and Sam leaves the restaurant, rejoining Lindsay outside. Lindsay tells Sam she’s gone crazy and asks since when she’s on speaking terms... (full context)
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...Elody’s beautiful singing voice and the way she snorts when she laughs. She loves that Lindsay will dance anytime, anywhere, even without music, and that Lindsay once toilet papered a guy’s... (full context)
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...pull up to Kent’s house, and Sam tells them to go inside—she’s planning on driving Lindsay’s car back to Lindsay’s house. Lindsay protests—she points out that without the car they won’t... (full context)
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Sam texts Kent to pick her up at Lindsay’s, and then heads there herself. She worries, though, that he won’t hear a text in... (full context)
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Kent picks Sam up at Lindsay’s, and doesn’t ask any questions—why Sam was there, or why she needed him specifically to... (full context)
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Inside, Lindsay, Elody, and Ally all welcome Sam warmly. They offer her a drink, but Sam tells... (full context)
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...back into the woods. As the truck roars by, the woods quiet, and Sam hears Lindsay calling her name—along with Kent, Elody, and Ally. Juliet, frightened, asks why Sam couldn’t just... (full context)
Epilogue
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...She recalls spending time with Izzy on Cape Cod; cooking with Ally and Elody; embracing Lindsay; enjoying Christmas with her family; and lastly, she remembers kissing Kent. That, Sam says, was... (full context)