Julia finds herself missing Paris, particularly “the way French men check women out.” She feels she has “become invisible” in New York City. Even when she spends nights with her boyfriend, Julia is haunted by images, which consume her “like the tide creeping up the beach.”
Julia is still struggling with her sense of selfhood. Her feeling of invisibility highlights the fact that she is unused to not having outside validation of her own worth. Her nighttime visions show that she is literally haunted by all she has learned about the past over the preceding months.